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baby

2010-04-29T14:07:00.000Z

hey girl listen
to my heartbeat
listen to my cries

hey girl look
how hard it is
for you to notice
me
here

Long have it been since I've watched you, adored you. Worship the ground you're on. Its been ages that I've been here. Just making sure the heavens don't move the mountains wait. Till the divine hour appears.

I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But I'm not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
I'm left with no shoulder
But everyone wants to lean on me.
I guess I'm their soldier.
Well, who's gonna be mine

Who's there to save the hero
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help.
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.

I bottle all my hurt inside,
I guess I'm living a lie.
Inside my mind each day I die
What can bring me back to life?
A simple word, a gesture
Someone to say you're beautiful
Come find this buried treasure
it's rainbows lead to a pot of gold

Who's there to save the hero
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.

I've given too much of myself
And now it's driving me crazy
(I'm crying out for help?
Sometimes I wish someone would
Just come here and save me
Save me from myself

Who's there to save the hero
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.

i need some reassurance that things will be as it is.
That some things remain the same. For some things have changed the evangelical way of life. Pushed it off its duly course. I don't know who I've wronged or what I did. Most of it is just pure nonsense or blank. So I guess this is what they want for me to even be here. The words have left me. I miss my notebook oh where is it who took it?

stop saying that
stop calling my name
i left i do not return
somewhere between the fourth and fifth realm
i stopped functioning

random

2010-04-15T07:39:00.000Z

umayr: ba alif ba ya ba alif ba ya!

hahahamerepek seyh die

bising macam ape.

klw pelihara monyet kat rumah agaknye lagi senyap;

nak balik kampong lagi! tak puas seyh swimming baru once aje. please lah sape2 ikut syahirah g kampung.!!!!..

ha!

i want to make cupcakes! yum2

nanti i nak g kedai beli betty crocker nyer cake mix and then buat lah cupcakes. ngan icing! i pon nak buat icing, or beli aje, belum tau lagi. pastu decorate decorate decorate.! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-04-09T08:01:00.000Z

aishah:kak syahirah kenape cakap macam gitu?

hello hello!

okay, now it comes to this: whether or not to continue living in Singapore. face it, nobody like living in Singapore. Its so strict and boring, and there's nothing to do at all.
I want (most of my sentences begin with these two words) to live in Syria because its great and there's snow.
hello I want to go inside the Ka'ba!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay i want too!

woa I saw lightning across just now
hey its pink again~
lets post this crap~

joke

2010-04-09T07:31:00.002Z

Aishah: Paklong, kat rumah paklong ade permaisuri?
Paklong: Ade satu. Kalau puteri ade dua.
Aishah: Kat rumah Aishah ada empat.
Me: Aishah, permaisuri tu apa?
Aishah: Permaisuri tu carpetlah!
Everybody burst out laughing just then. LOL!

2010-04-09T07:24:00.000Z

suddenly i feel like typing in blue.

I am stinking bored at home. I wish I led a fantastic life socialising and having fun or living life like I had a purpose. Where I have many glittering dresses and smart jeans and go partying every other night. But, alas, I am not living such lavish ways, I am here, chained to my home, looking ugly and fat.

Things that I do not like to do:
1.Clean the house
2.Be told to clean the house
3.Actually cleaning the house

It could be surmised that I am: lazy, lonely and lame.

Aha! I shall blog here about my love for Tescos and frozen RM6 chocolate fudge-brownie cake and have grown fond of Mee Bakso at Larkin. This is a growing testament for my fondness of food and groceries (weirdly). I just like to be surrounded by rows and rows, neat, of stuffs like detergents and soaps and cooking oils and shirts and slippers and sushis and such things that could be found in a Tesco.

I have ghastly nightmares frequently that I am afraid of going to sleep. They are so scarily vivid and real that I get sucked into them pretty bad. I sleep alone, thus aggravating my fear of going to sleep at night. Sometimes the nightmares are interesting. But they are all of my old school, haunting me, mocking me.

Where most of 20 year olds are enjoying life, I have yet even to secure a boyfriend.

I AM TIRED OF THIS LIFE, AND IF THERE IS A NEXT LIFE, I WANT TO ENTER IT, FAST.

facebook

2010-04-09T06:48:00.000Z

wow
i got ~~500 friends~~ on facebook!

who wouldve thought?
though i talk to only 3 of them.
well, in a while im gonna pick up my bro from school.
he's only 3 so he needs picking up. gaahhhh.

right now, im rethinking which school i should go to:

misr: university al azhar or stinky nus or

medina: islamic university of medina which im DYING to go to

or Umm Qura university in Mekkah

well, of course! I don't wanna stay in Singapore./Yuck\\

I want to go bowling tomorrow or sunday, hope it goes on well. Right now, my mind is kryptic? I dunno its flashing lotsa stuff.

2010-03-25T10:08:00.001Z

google loves me

متى نصر الله؟

2010-03-22T11:42:00.000Z

هأناذا

bestfriends,lost

2010-03-22T11:34:00.000Z

i miss you.

i miss my friends, miss a. and miss a., a lot!!!

i wish we could meet up and talk civilly.lol

i even dreamt of her.

i just miss her lots and the crazy fun we had together.

idk what happened between us but i hope we could make up.

#we make really great bestfriends!#

bfs forever enemies never.

haha.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i wanna cry~~~

2010-02-10T08:15:00.000Z

hey all
this is my second time reblogging after a looooooooooong hiatus.
i need to dye my hair blonde thats the color i want, blonde, pink and black.
wearing thongs make you fart more, i just discovered.haha
oh and i also need nail polish
and orange juice and soy bean
its weird how, now, when i want orange juice i want soy bean drink too like they go together like soy bean and cincau.lol
ok i want waffles and pancakes with maple syrup.
you know, i used to buy this maple syrup in a glass bottle which looks like a whisky bottle. its not very nice maple its kinda i dont know, to go with the malt, stale.
and sharp.

staring out into the night drowning out the pain
at night, i cant sleep.
i think about him too much.
i miss him, does he know, does he feel my yearning, my longing, my pain.
i guess not.

2010-02-09T07:56:00.000Z

well hello, all
i think my blog's redundant now but anyways...
i kinda like this guy on the net
these guys, i mean
theyre very suave
sweet talkers
and they TRAVEL

i need to go on a diet
bt it sux
coz idk
i dont feel like not eating
and im always hungry
it helps if theres fruit and vegs at home
but there isnt any!

i think ive written bout this gazillion times
i wanna travel
please please please
to anywhere where theres no parents
!!!
i wanna meet everyone from everywhere
hahaha that sounds lame

2009-11-21T16:35:00.000Z

have you ever wondered...
what other people think?

Here's looking at you kid

2009-11-13T13:05:00.002Z

!Twice tis happend.devil vs angel part 3!

2009-11-10T02:10:00.000Z

hey where's my last postt??? grrr.da pnat2 rant tkd :/

ONLINE PAPERWORK!

2009-03-06T10:43:00.003Z

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its been a long time coming

2008-11-05T09:32:00.003Z

this picture so sophisticated yeah...makes as if this blog's worth reading
lol

wow.been quite a while yeah?
taking some break from the As.. thank God~
dont wanna talk about it, *just hope it gonna turn out alright*

um, my language's allllll BAD and deteriorating///
the words dont come out right like i want it to be, so bear with me yeahh..lol
i just CANT WAIT for 27th november~~the day'tll all be over// hurraahhh!!!!!

color change!

hahaxx..my grandmother's staying over. and well, now i know why shes sooo difficult. demands galore, i tell ya~ and i want to claim back my confiscated terrain! but something good came out of it, she gave me ten bucks the other day ;) but, at times, i physically have to bite my tongue before something acrid comes out. lol~

i miss doing listsss. so, im doing one now =) :
*searched for it(yeah wrote it down) but cant find it*

oh well;.

bye,love,syahirah.

flyoff

2008-09-12T04:49:00.002Z

assalamualaikum all~
i wish to welcome everyone into the holy month of Ramadhan and, ehm, SEPTEMBER, the most gracious months of all monthsss!

=)

yesterday night, i went to the airport to send off Abdillah to *KUWAIT*. soooooo lucky lah that boy!!! hes on an everything-paid-for schooling there and this shows that it pays to be a nice, obedient, good, filial, smart, soft-spoken, well-liked, hardworking son/student/person in general. he was *handpicked* and *chosen* because of his GOOD ATTITUDE and ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE.like wow, so special, along with Khalil, another boy. their whole class sent them off, and i saw impressionable BOYS crying because their friends were leaving them, and i heard them say to Abdillah:''balik tau'' and ''sampai sane call aku'', all those stuffs, and hugging him,etc,~soooo sweet right/// so young,yet, their gonna travel and live in another far flung country and me, well, its like i have roots and tentacles anchoring me to this dull country's grounds...only two were going, but the send-off party was HUGE and i wondered...damn.whats mine gonna be.
and always,theres the big black announcement board (the old one, where the letters and word physically SHUFFle). and yeah BALI was on and PARIS and MUNICH and FRANKFURT and ISTANBUL and KAZAKHSTAN(lol) whereever like you can choose anywhere you wanna go and fly off there for real. i practically cried because well, I WANNA TRAVEL to all those amazingly fabulous and cool places and never evereverevrevr go to school and live like a nomad gypsie but finally settle down at THEBESTESTMOSTPRETTYPLACEINTHEWHOLEWIDEWORLDANDLIVETHEREHAPPILYEVERAFTER but the chances of that happening is like, zero to none. sheesshhh noooooooooooo its ONE!!! ;) ameen

an incident which occured:
we were on the 858 bus heading towards the airport which left the interchange at 1845 and so, obviously, maghrib will be and we'll still be onboard. at 1902, a makcik called home: ''da siap semua? buat air ape? air teh? aahh okkk''. haha. then the bus moved along and she got off. then, i saw this makcik in front take out smtg frm her plastic bag and chewingchewingchewing and i said to my mother it must be maghrib already. concurrently, at the seat next to me, two women were iftaring also, one with orange juice and curry puff and another with a mcdonalds burger with a pungent cheese yuckyuckyuck smell emanating from it. so gross. and behind me, there was a man, whom i suspect a muslim too, sipping a drink. it was a foodfest on wheels.hahax.not to be outdone,my mom fished out LOLmee gorengLOL from her bag and passed around to my sisters to eat, which i politely refused. then, of course, im hungry, so i went to the foodcourt at terminal 3 but evrytg looked sooo unappetizing and normal and fast food was of course, OUT so i only ate dessert (tau suan,you know?) and drank this sickeningly diabeticinducing sweet lime drink fakely posing as aloe vera drink which i ordered but got this this this ************ proxy.

rushmore

2008-08-28T15:14:00.002Z

i soooo look forward to this week long holidayssss...
cant wait
i really need to refocus and tell myself that THIS IS IT
my last year of madrasah education
and that i should take it seriously and NOT screw it up

dad said: youve already got through what, like twelve, thirteen years of schooling
you sure can get through these last sixty or so days...

but well... its like the battle's half fought but really, is it even worth fighting?
the time's not quite right for philosophicals like this
just get through with it yeah

okay on a lighter note
today i totally went helter
kinderbuenosdoughnutsbubbleteaskindofskelter
sugar levels off through the roofsss
lol

i can't believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i can't believe it
4 years gone down the drain

What do you do when your water runs dry
When your greens and your blues turn to black and white
It's the story of my life
When the fires get out, can you turn 'em off
Can you turn 'em off

Cada vez que siento que el mundo se me esta cerrando
Solo pienso en escaparme del mal
Y cada vez que siento que el aire se me esta acabando pienso en volar
Hasta donde nadie me pueda encontrar

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

hopes and wishes DO come true
it doesnt hurt believing

renditions

2008-08-07T15:13:00.002Z

its august already

can you believe it

i wish i could:

turn back

stop

and

fastforward

time

friends forever, enemies never, ameeeeeen =)

2008-08-04T09:45:00.003Z

some disturbed mental creep did this AMAAAAAZIIIIIIINGGGGG video and ALLL of you should DEFINITELY WATCH ITTTTTT and COMMENT at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDBqWPZGLrE !!!! in return, youll get my ETERNAL LOVE =) XD

rih

2008-07-31T09:35:00.006Z

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:)

''the world is changing right before your eyes''

i like supermarkets.
last time i went out with my sis and after we bought our bubble teas and were driftin cluelessly where to go, i said we should go to Cold Storage. i love watching all the displays and the endless display of foodstuffs which makes a customer spoilt for choice. therere things from all over the world. accidentally, i touched a packaging of a tube like yellow tube. i recoiled upon contact due to the squishy nature of the object. the words were all in japanese and when i inspected CLOSER i saw in fine print that it was mayo from japan. who the hell would want to buy mayo from japan????
on sunday i went to sheng siong (?) with habiibah. after we bought bubble teas too. <3
we were windowshopping the chocs stuff. i typed it here just nw and its gone.

in any supermarket, know that-
the juices aisle is the best!
orange! apple! cranberry! carrot! grape! mango! lime! pineapple! pomegranate! juices
in
plastic! carton box! aluminium! tin! packages
and at the top of them juice boxes:
yogurt-
bluberry! strawberry! mango! aloe vera! plain! low fat! fat free! 99% fat free! non fat! chocolate! yogurts
even margarine: canola, salt reduced, cholestrol free, olive oil
dont get me started on RICE/WATER/SHAMPOO/SOAP/DISINFECTANT/FLOUR
the totally overwhelming too many choices dazzling array of stuff is definite insanity.
what affects consumers' choices then?
advertisements? own experience? recommendations from friends/families? price? packaging? marketing? product placement and display? 'time constrains'even?

should i could i would i:
go?

do i want to:
live?/leave?/pass?/excel?/care?

why:
dont i listen?/do?/escape?/run?/travel?

''do whatever you want''

what do i want.?.

2008-07-26T16:01:00.003Z

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

i want to type in codespeak but i guess that would defeat the purpose.
or not. whatever.
the realisation that life is superficial is weighing me down day by day. if its fake, why live it? if its gonna end, is it even worth trying?
of course, i realise that these fatalistic thinking and ideology are but manifestations from satan but well, you do think. and when you are far from Allah, you will be sapped of the energy to continue living.
secondly, i feel that all undivine relationships are at the surface level only, shallow and at some point, generic and hypocritical. this realisation, or as you persist, unjustified statement of fallacy, has rendered me quiter somehow. on the upside, silence is golden and you will make lesser mistakes or slips of the tongue, but on the flip, i have lost innovation, creativity, curiosity, and all other thought generating stimulators, which houses me in the same vicinity as airheads.
thirdly, due to the fact that there is no narrative essays, i have not read any novels since eons.
fourth, although my head hurts begging me to sleep, i just cant.

it is my nature to think up and generally type out entries which could not be comprehended, but well, it is more funner. if you get what i mean, were totally compatible and you win a free gulfstream. then again, its pretty obvious as there is no algorithms involved and you dont need a cryptographer to crack my meaning, and oh well. even if i had a gulfstream, you wouldnt even dare so as much as to mention its sacred name in my presence.

the models

2008-07-14T10:28:00.002Z

i soooooooooooooooo totally love modeling~~~ hartshartshartssss

saturday@swissotel:

it was freakin awesome most fabulous fantastic thing.

i reached there after making a detour to raffles hotel (lol) at about 915am.

just GOTTA make a grand entrance (evrybody else was there at 8plusam i think.hahax)

so they were giving out groups who went with who.

initially i was with zahidah.

we went for a dry run on the stage. i was extra nervours coz were wearing these grand super painful 8cm heels which wrecked my back.lol

the catwalk was not really stable and can move2 and there were lotsa cables which u could trip on, but thankfully nobody did:)

there were 24-28 people total.hahax

then we went back to the dressing room to get our makeup done :)

i was the lastest to get done and the designer i was assigned to, bu endang, kept calling: SYAHIRAH~~`SYAHIRAH``~~~ and i was like YE YE YE SINI!! coz there was like super many people tripping over each other in rancid panic.

the foundation kept layering on and on one on top of each other and the whole time i was worrying about germs and infections coz they shared brushes and sponges on everybody then i relaxed a bit went i tot: hey, developing my immunity yeah~ lol

make up done, i went to be fitted. feel like royalty man, somebody puttin on my garb for me, fussing over me. so cool!!! do you know that u put on the hijab first before the dress?? yeah. every designer did that. but us, we do the reverse yeah.lol

the first dress i wore was orange ethnicy and it was okay. i was eyeing the nuniek rosa's collection which was super uber cool and chic and trendy. but mine was okay too ppl said it was pretty so :)

my twin was fiza, who wore a same diff version of my outfit. shes pretty and sweet and said i am her reflection, like she was looking into a mirror.

we all got ready, lined up outside, evrybody was GORGEOUS and TALL and WOW!!! we re sooooooo cool

A BEVY OF MODELS =)

then we went onstage and strutted our stuff and rush2 went back, got into the scd outfit.

due to technicalities, i was to be iva lativa's model ''jalannya biar anggun, jgn kaku ya''.lol

the dress is a very sweet barbie doll pengantin dress with motifs at the front handsewn with pretty beads and selendang which really just, menyusahkan org to model and walk on stage with. i was with farhana, she in blue, me in pink, twins again:)

then got on the runway for the second time, loved evry second on it, but yeah, evry gd thing has gotta end, sadly :(

the experience is great!!!! treasure it man~~

ANYBODY NEED A MODEL??? WOULD DEFINITELY DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!! :)

shouting matches

2008-07-09T13:36:00.003Z

omg.
this is so.
12/7:alj hi tea hopefully&concurrently laptop issuance
13/7:orientation
19/7:seminar
26/7:seminar

SHOULD I GO?

i'd be dead tired plus ITS NOT LIKE IM GOING TO THE BEACH
but the titles all too good to miss.
when am i ever gonna be like:
contended?

astaghfirullah.

just say Alhamdulillah for whtever u have now.
coz wht u hv nw, is more than others ever had.

i feel like i want to write a book, then publish it. but i have no idea WHAT to write about. what would YOU like to read about? suggestions needed asap :)

first post (quite)

2008-06-27T13:09:00.003Z

helllllloooo all. :)

this layout's simplicity is soooo neat eh,? i like it.
i went to assyakirin mosque for jum'ah.lass~
it was a cool and biggg mosque.
like it was in malaysia.
and i got this comment:
''senyum banyak2 sikit lah.'' hahax
and this question:
''umur brape?'' lol
the highlights.

~~~i wanna model~~~
farah is sooooooooo stinkin'selfish

2008-06-24T01:52:00.003Z

Big Paycheck or Service? Students Are Put to Test

CJ Gunther for The New York Times
“I don’t think a lot of people at Harvard know what a hedge fund or a consulting firm is when they start.” DHAVAL CHADHA, who will spend the next year on a fellowship in Brazil

By SARA RIMER
Published: June 23, 2008

A prominent education professor at Harvard has begun leading “reflection” seminars at three highly selective colleges, which he hopes will push undergraduates to think more deeply about the connection between their educations and aspirations.

The professor, Howard Gardner, hopes the seminars will encourage more students to consider public service and other careers beyond the consulting and financial jobs that he says are almost the automatic next step for so many graduates of top colleges.

“Is this what a Harvard education is for?” asked Professor Gardner, who is teaching the seminars at Harvard, Amherst and Colby with colleagues. “Are Ivy League schools simply becoming selecting mechanisms for Wall Street?”
Although others have expressed similar concerns in recent years, his views have gained support on the Harvard campus with students, faculty and even the new president, Drew Gilpin Faust, who made the topic the cornerstone of her address to seniors during commencement week. Dr. Faust noted that in the past year, whenever she has met with students, their first question has always been the same: “Why are so many of us going to Wall Street?”

On other campuses as well, officials are questioning with new vigor whether too many top students who might otherwise turn their talents to a broader array of fields are being lured by high-paying corporate jobs, and whether colleges should do more to encourage students to consider other careers, especially public service.

As Adam M. Guren, a new Harvard graduate who will be pursuing his doctorate in economics, put it, “A lot of students have been asking the question: ‘We came to Harvard as freshmen to change the world, and we’re leaving to become investment bankers — why is this?’ ”

In her speech, Dr. Faust highlighted the results of a spring survey by The Crimson, the student newspaper, which found that about 20 percent of this year’s graduates were heading into financial services and management consulting, down from about 22 percent last year.

She acknowledged the appeal of the jobs — the money, the promise of stimulating work, the security for students of knowing they will be working alongside their friends, a commitment of only two or three years. She urged the students to search for measures of personal success beyond financial security, despite “the all but irresistible recruiting juggernaut.”

In his commencement speech last month at Wesleyan University, Barack Obama, the presumptive Democratic presidential nominee, voiced a similar theme when he sounded an impassioned call to public service, and warned that the pursuit of narrow self-interest — “the big house and the nice suits and the other things that our money culture says you should buy ... betrays a poverty of ambition.”
Universities are so concerned about this issue that some — Amherst, Tufts, the University of Pennsylvania and Harvard, for example — have expanded public service fellowships and internships. “We’re in the business of graduating people who will make the world better in some way,” said Anthony Marx, Amherst’s president. “That’s what justifies the expense of the education.”

This year, Tufts announced that it would pay off college loans for graduates who chose public service jobs. And officials at Harvard, Penn, Amherst and a number of other colleges say one reason they have begun emphasizing grants instead of loans in financial aid is so students do not feel pressured by their debts to pursue lucrative careers.

In an interview this spring, Dr. Faust held up as a model Teach for America, the nonprofit program that has recruited large numbers of students at top colleges to teach in low-income schools for two years. With 9 percent of Harvard’s senior class applying to Teach for America this year, 37 students made the cut.

One of the seniors that Dr. Faust met with in the winter was Dhaval Chadha, who wanted her support for a “diversity in careers” forum he was organizing. Mr. Chadha, 21, who grew up in India, will spend the next year on a fellowship in Brazil, working with an antipoverty group in preparation for what he says will be his career in public service.

“I don’t think a lot of people at Harvard know what a hedge fund or a consulting firm is when they start,” he said. But then, he explained, juniors and seniors being recruited come back from expensive dinners out and “start throwing salaries around,” and students begin to understand that “there’s already a kind of prestige attached to working for those people.”

“It’s like applying to college all over again,” he added. “ ‘I applied to 8 to 10 Ivy League colleges, and I got in here. I applied to these 40 companies, and I got into these ones.’ It’s exactly the thing that appeals to the Harvard competitive spirit.”

Evgenia Peeva, who will be working for McKinsey, said: “You have to be part of the competition. You have to prove to yourself and everyone else that you can do it.”

Bryan Barnhill, a Harvard senior from a public high school in Detroit, took a semester off and will graduate next year. “Some people say it’s a selfish thing to do,” he said, referring to the lucrative jobs. “They say you should be using your talent for something beneficial for your community. Terms like ‘corporate whore’ would be tossed around.”

Competition for corporate jobs is fierce. But applying, usually online through Harvard’s Office of Career Services, is easy.

“I don’t think I would have applied if it wasn’t almost an automatic option,” said Neil Sawhney, 21, a recent graduate who turned down a management consulting job for a paralegal job, and plans to go to law school. “It’s hard to overstate how much everyone is doing it.”

But for many Harvard seniors, corporate work represents security. “It’s scary not knowing what you’re going to do,” said Chen Xie, who is joining McKinsey. “A lot of people think, ‘Here’s a plan, let’s just do the safe thing.’ ”

When Akshay Ganju began at Harvard four years ago, he burned with ambition to be a doctor. “You get to help people all the time,” he said. But his junior year he took a summer internship with Bain & Company, and loved it. “It was like going to Harvard,” said Mr. Ganju, 21, a new graduate. “There were so many smart people there.”

Now he is about to join Bain for a full-time job. The generous salary, Mr. Ganju said, will make it possible to pay off his college loans.

He still may end up going to medical school, he said, or maybe business school.
“I don’t think the point of our education is to make us rich,” Mr. Ganju said. “We all feel we want to do something meaningful beyond just accumulating wealth.''

2008-06-17T14:42:00.003Z

WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 4 DAYS:

SATURDAY was a two part special

UNO PARTEZ

morning:

woke up, got ready in a frenzy rush, because i gotta be at paya lebar at 745am but i woke up at 645am or smtg like that.
took a taxi after a false offer ( typical typical.least this time there WAS an offer )from dad to send me to mrt. the fare was like 18 bucks and i got fifty so i had 32 left..then went for the MAPT test at jamiya biz sch, met safura dwnstairs( she first,lol) then went up, got into class, found out tt i couldnt log in, waited and watched vids on frontline ( son of alqaeda! MUST watch! ) then finally sat for the exams at 1115hrs, got into MEDIU, gotta take passport pix(tanx ruq for the loan, remind me to pay ye back asap soon, and oh yeah: i want my black scarf back.hahax.kidding.keep it, when i want it i tell.lolll.arent i a generousss girl..hahax self praise) k then met new people, and saw one old: safura, zuriah, atiq. both two got in, the third: dont know little care.;p

DOS PARTEZ

evening: went to kenduri at uncle's house with ruqayyah
momentous conversations:
''anak die tinggal kat france, anak kita tinggal kat qatar''
grr.

then slept there :)

SUNDAY

went BEACH~~~~~~~` lovelovelove~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
changi beach to be precise fun! namely: climbed the twisting pretty tree, picked up its fruits aplenty shaken by hands mighty lol, skipped stones: fuad rocks!! like literally, he made them skip 5/6 times, dunno how he did it, played footie with zaki mustaqim farah umayr, on the swings highhhhhhh up besides hanani and even sat twins: two pretty cute angels, alisha and aleeya, who wanted to sit on my lap on the swing set: how cute! how adorable: they chose me over their own MOM! lolllll sygggg babiesss :)

then dad called, said pak anjang was going to the club, i was practically screaming: '' i WANNA GOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!'' so went i did. bought shirt to wear, pronto, then got on train, gottoff at clementi, took free ride -car- lol to: RSYC-ie yatch club- ok. went to canteen, ate rojak, yum, then waited for turn to jet ski. it was:

FUN! I WAS flying! JUMPING OFF~ HOLD ON TIGHT!!! LONG PANTS TURN shortsss LOL
great fun, but it lasted for like 15 seconds,lol. I WANT MOOOORRRRRRRREEE

met yasmin, who is super nice and cool and young and pretty lol, who lent me her towel later that day. khairin shot her off with many rude n prude questions, which i told her to ignore coz hes like that -family enviro, u see-lolll, and she said to him: ''ur pretty smart for an 11yearold'' yeah he is. too loud mouthed offensive kinda smart.

then went swimming in my funky getup, changed, ate: the best part i guess, coz somebody elses was paying it plus there was a lotta kids, and it wass all good
foodstuff consumed: pizza, fish and chips, coke floats, bread&butter(reminded me of plane food-yum), beef hor fun or smtg likthat, black n white sundaes all around, a single sorbet, lime juice.

stuffed: they watched charlie n e choc factory, while i half watched, roamed abt the club- went to shhhhhh the ____ and the ____ and the chart room! the chart room was the best coz theres books plus leonmarcokerry and the girls. pretty(noisy).!!! gr8 day~:)

MONDAY

went to sch....

and beach!

to be continued tomorrow. watch this page! :)

2008-06-14T01:43:00.002Z

sharing session :)
Salaam,

The Muslim Woman and Her Own Self-

Her Body: Moderation in Food and Drink- She Exercises Regularly Her Body and Clothes are Clean (jom jogging !)- She Takes Care of her Mouth and Teeth- She Takes Care of Her Hair- She Takes Care of Good Appearance She Does Not Go to Extremes of Beautification or Make a Wanton Display of Herself- She Takes Care of Her Mind by Pursuing Knowledge until death as knowledge is an obligation- A Muslim Woman Needs to Know basics regarding deen is Quran,Hadith, Seerah,Islamic History,Fiqh- A Muslim Women's Achieves wisdom in the Field of Knowledge In General as long as Shariah approves such knowledge.- She is not Superstitious- She Never Stops Reading and Studying- The Muslim Woman polishes her soul through worship- She Keeps Company with Righteous People and Joins Religious gatherings- She Frequently Repeats Du'as and Supplications Described in Quran & Ahadith

The Muslim Woman and Her Parents-

She Treats Them with Kindness and Respect (Birr)- She Recognizes Their Status and Knows Her Duties Towards Them- She is Kind and Respectful Towards Her Parents Even If They are not Muslims- She is Extremely Reluctant to Disobey Them- Her Mother Comes First, Then Her Father- She treats her parents' friends well- She shows her kindness and humility towards her parents by not using words of contempt nor repelling them

The Muslim Woman and Her Husband-

She knows importance of Marriage in Islam- She follows the guidance of Islam in her married life- She Chooses a Good Husband (take note sumeee.. hahax)- She is Obedient to Her Husband and Shows Him Respect- She Treats His Mother and Family with Kindness and Respect- She understands her Husband and respects his feelings- She helps him to make up for his failings and weaknesses- She knows how to strike a balance between pleasing her husband and treating her In-laws with due kindness and respect- She Endears Herself to her Husband and is Keen to Please Him- She Does not Disclose His Secrets She Stands by Him and Offers Him AdviceS- he Encourages Him to Spend and Give Charity for the Sake of Allah- She Helps Him to Obey Allah (subhanawatala)- She Fills His Heart with Joy- She Makes Herself Beautiful for Him- She is Cheerful and Grateful when She Meets Him- She Shares His Joys and Sorrows- She Does not Look at Other Men- She Does not Describe Other Women to Him- She Tries to Create an Atmosphere of Peace and Tranquility for Him-She is Tolerant and Forgiving- She is Strong in Character and Wise- She is One of the Most Successful Wives- She does not divorces without a valid reason

The Muslim Woman and Her Friends and Sisters in Islam-

She Loves Her Friends and Sisters for the Sake of Allah- He Knows the great Status of Two Who Love One Another for the Sake of Allah- She Knows the Effect of Love for the Sake of Allah on the life of the Muslims is essential for unity- She Does Not Forsake or Abandon Her Sister- She is Tolerant and Forgiving- She Meets Them with a Smiling Face- She is Sincere Towards Them- She has a natural inclination towards kindness and faithfulness- She is Kind to her sisters- She Does not Gossip About Them- She Avoids Arguing with Them, Making Hurtful Jokes and Breaking Promises- She is Generous and Honours Her Sisters and prefers over herself- She Prays for Her Sisters in Their Absence

The Muslim Woman and Her Community/ Society-

She Has a Good Attitude Towards Others and Treats Them Well- She is truthful & avoids giving false statements- She is Concerned About the Affairs of the Muslims- She chooses works that suits her Feminine nature- She Strives to Reconcile Between Muslim Women- She Repays Favours and is Grateful for Them- She does not cheat, deceive or stab in the back- She is not envious- She is sincere & gives sincere advice- She keeps her promises- She has a good attitude towards others and treats them well- She is characterized by shyness (Haya')- She is gentle towards people- She is compassionate and merciful- She is tolerant ,forgiving and generous- She is easy-going in his business dealings- She is of cheerful countenance-She has a sense of humor- She is patient- She avoids cursing and foul language- She does not falsely accuse anyone of fisq or kufr- She is modest and discreet- She does not interfere in that which does not concern her- She refrains from backbiting and slandering the Honour of Others and Seeking Out Their Faults- She avoids giving false statements- She avoids suspicion- She keeps secrets- She does not converse privately with another person when there is a third person present- She is not arrogant or proud- She is humble and modest- She does not make fun of anyone- She respects elders and distinguished people- She mixes with people of noble character- She strives for people's benefit and seeks to protect them from harm- She strives to reconcile between Muslims- She calls people to the truth- She enjoins what is good and forbids what is evil- She is wise and eloquent in his da'wah- She is not a hypocrite- She does not show off or boast- She is Moderate with Regard to Her Clothing and Appearance- She is straightforward and consistent in her adherence to the truth- She repays favors and is grateful for them- She mixes with people and puts up with their insults- She tries to make people happy- She guides others to righteous deeds- She is easy on people, not hard and Does Not Bear Grudges- She is fair in his judgment of people- She does not oppress or mistreat others- She loves noble things and always aims high- Her speech is not exaggerated or affected- She does not rejoice in the misfortunes of others- She is generous - She does not remind the beneficiaries of his charity- She is hospitable- She prefers others to herself- She helps to alleviate the burden of the debtor- She is proud and does not beg (tak paham actualli)- She is friendly and likeable- She checks her customs and habits against Islamic standards- She follows Islamic manners in the way she eats and drinks- She greets with Islamic greeting i.e salam- She does not enter a house other than her own without permission- She does not look into other people's houses-She sits wherever she finds room in a gathering- She avoids yawning in a gathering as much as she can- She follows the Islamic etiquette when she sneezes- She does not imitate Men- She Does Not Seek the Divorce of Another Woman so that She May Taker Her Place- She visits the sick- She does not wails over dead.- She Does not attends funerals

Wassalammm..taken from: muslimdiary.com

2008-06-08T13:26:00.004Z

siti tagged,..rules:-each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves-bloggers tagged need to write on their blog about their ten things and post the rules.-at the end of your blog you need to choose 10 people you're going to tag and list their names.-dont forget to comment on their site that they're tagged.

1. i HATE germs.
2. when i take showers, i soapeth twice or thrice, depending on how much time i have left.lol
3. it takes me approx. min. 1 hour to get ready to go anywhere.
4. i love orange juice. it is my blood.
5. i have many theories about life. all of them are TRUE. non-neg. FACTS.
6. anorexia is sexy, ciggs are NOT
7. oh. i panic fast, but am most rational.hahax
8. i over-use lol.do you know: umayr has this song:lololololololololololol nice!harts!love!gorgeous babyboy!mine!
9. even though i know something is right, that i should absolutely must essentially do it, i do the exact opposite. oh. and i dont follow rules which dont make sense.
10. medinaharvardmedinaharvardmedinaharvardmedinaharvard
design/adsarelove
fastfoodsaregross
fruitsandvegsrules
alhamdulillah.done.

who wanna do this, copy paste, edit =) la ikroha fid deen.. *winks*

i have to do 3 (THREE) design/art stuffs. yeay! -but isnt close to starting any of them yet-

one: t-shirt designing
two: faraid-baby/pink, zen blaack+white, english-oriental picture frame
three: arabicclub-camel papier mache(spellcheck pls! lol)

i love the art things shopping with money which is not mine.absolutely amazing, no-guilt shopping,like everything is FREE and i can buy the WHOLE shop.hahax(if its within the budget)lol

ok.this wont be a long post, promise:)

2008-06-06T12:45:00.001Z

i just wanna die now.

pls

death is easier

then

living in pain.

-end quote-

i need drugs

2008-06-02T10:55:00.002Z

Monday, June 2, 2008

bahas4pm
perkampungan bahas 2008best sgt2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sukesukesukesangat seronok. mule2 tk suke. sbb beg berat, tkt bahas lagi.okso, breakdown:

hari pertama:

register pkl 3, dpt kunci bilik, msk bilik. seronok sgt2! tmpt nya seolah2 condo. amat indah, biliknya cozy, namun selesa da bersih. 430pm, program bermula. fun2. main permainan berkumpulan, grp saya best tau. sbb sayer ade, hahaxx. tkla2. org die seme ok2. lame2 rapat.tp yg penting, faci best and klakar giler, crap2, lame2.

org2 nyer:1-syahirah aiman(of corz)2-farhana SP-pretty n smart n nice n gd debator!!!3-haryani VJC-pretty n chinese(half) n very familiar face4-unaizah MAARIF-friendly n hyper n kind5-fadli? ke ape? entahlah.name lelaki tk igt PIONEER tk slh6-fuuhh.ini LAGI tk igt. girl tapi. so remeber krg, evrywhere u go, tkmo snyp. org WONT remember.lol7-khairul anuar.faci die yg funny mrepek. teacher malay yg tk suka ckp malay kt pei hwa tk silap.-finnissh-

pastu mlm undi sape lwn sape n tajuknya apa

mwt lawan meredian,

tajuk: teknologi meluaskan lagi jurang generasi.

meredian menang, wlwpn dua2 bahas tk bgs, because we contradicted our own points..lalala.lollllxxx ok.lol.

hari kedua:bahas day.

haiz. small card blom tulis. then tulis2. then mak kte call kasi points byk2 lame2. haiyoo.benny: ''igtkan siaran radio" lol. -i put her on speakerphone. then benny want some points and i ask: u guys want her? lol, then i pass the phone to his friend. hahax.bhs okay, but as usual, i throw in some of my crap(and got back laughters...woohoo.lol), got stuck halfway coz tk hafal, yadayadayada. lol. an experience.
-da habis bahas!!!! yeay!!!!-

SOCIALIZING TIME!!!! FUN TIME!!! MY FAVEEEE

first game charade n win lose or draw boring. ive always hated it. oh wait. i hated it coz my stomach hurted. it hurted all the way frm forever till NOW. :'(

then maen games:1-caterpillar2-spoon n ball balance game3-war of the worlds ''CHONG AH!~~''4-leading the blind5-human scissors paper stone

MY GROUP WON EVRY TIME!!! -bcoz gt me,lol- ALHAMDULILLAH, I LOVE WINNING. SCISSORS PAPER STONE LAGIKKK STYLE TAU. ALLLLLL, EVRY TIME, LIKE EIGHT TIMES GITU, SEMUA WIN EVRY SINGLE TIME. TWICE DRAW. STYLE KAN//// I ABSOLUTELY ADORE WINNING. FIRST FIRST FIRSTWOOHOOOO~~~

mlm plan nk jln2. then pnat, tdo. hahax. hanisah pon same.

hari ketiga:siap2.

i was the last in my level to go out. biaselah, org sakit perut. nk cpt2 tkt terpengsan/termuntah/terpoo,lol. tp rupenye ramai lah org lambat slps sayer..hahaxx.buat panik shj.

saya mkn roti n jam n nutella yg saye force-feed.yuck. org lain mkn ape tu, oh.nasi lemak.yuck.tkmo ckp psl mknan nnt saya muntah.pastu start bahas.sya ddk btwn maarif n sp :)
syggggg drg. baek2 n interesting. mcm nk ckp, saya nk class ngn krg!!! drg masscomm ouhhkayhh. saya dgr da ~arggghhh~~ nk!! n farhana n hazwan in THEATER n amirah in DANCE. jealous2!! then dpn saya halim, yg rambutnya mcm nk kene touch sbb keras sgt. saya nk tny: can i touch ur hair nk rasa berapa keras like tt, tp it will be so weird rite? tmbahan pula sblah saya bdk maarif. hahax.

ok yg pembahas hari itu saya suka michele yg teramat lucu dr indo yg saya ~~~~~~~~ adoressssssssss die cute. indo sdp. sya nk mkn. hazwan pn same. die same2 excited ngn saya. farhana da smile like-areuserious-lol. tp mmg cute. klw awk nmpk michele pn ull fall for her. benny ckp: im in love~ sya agree. sya pon da in love ngn michele!!!lag debator yg saya suke adlah rifdi!!! die ckp mcm first time speak malay!!! amat kelakar sgt!!! dan die nye best fren-dr pri sch ddk sblah2 smp sec sch, tp jc berpisah-muka same like twins. ramai org tny are u twins? muka sama, serious. yg penting rifdi klakar habis dan sya suke die sbb crapness die terlalu tinggi. farah pioneer pn bgs, shaharuddin(eh?) yg twins rifdi tu pon bgs!!!

show quality+handsome+fluent=saya tk boleh dpt tp admire dr jauh lah kan/// :P

lps tu saya tny rifdi, awk pny bahasa name die ape? awk tk ckp bhasa melayu tau tadi. hahaxx. mula2 die tk fhm, tp pastu die smile2 je. bdk ni mmg pendiam, twinnya, exit stage left, sblm saye dpt berkata ape2.lol

perut sy saket, tp mknan sdp, so sya bungkus. hakim ckp dgn suara lembut2 nya dgn gaya sopan santunnya, yg amat saya lurvee <3>
then balik. bpk sy tknk amek sbb die pnat (nk tawu ape, sy balik die tgh tgk kiamat suda dkt nye muvee kt laptop! hampeh-msia seyylol),so sy n zahira nk naek teksi. beg saye berat mcm tong minyak USD $130 per barrel.lol saye tkle angkat. so sy pn ajak radhiah skali yg anak mr rahamat tuh, naik teksi.

then saya pass halim. sy tny die: balik naik ape? mak awk tk amek? klw mk awk amek nk tompang! lol dgn tk tau malunye sbb saya budget. die ckp tk, then sy ajak die naik taxi skali sbb saya baek. lol. then sya ckp tggu kt sane, sy nk g toilet. nk tau ape, sy klua toilet die ade, tgh tnggu saya. nk terpengsan sbb sweet sgt n saya mmg tgh saket perut pon. hahaxx.

so okeyyh, ktrg naik taxi ramai2. bile sy nk msk, die tny muat tk, like die nk msk ddk blkg n sy ddk dpn. klakar lah die, pdhal die lg besar dr saye. then naik taxi, radhia bising, over excited, zahirah kecoh, ktawa sekuat2 alam, da la taxi kecil, apa lagi, jangkitlah ketawa. saya saket perut sbb klakar ktwa byk sgt n mmg sy saket perut.lol reiteration of point, my mantra. ok, pastu nampak motor2 iring kereta org kawen, then nmpk kreta org kawen, then dpn lag, nmpk bus ade boys kompang then dpn lg ade bus girls dance. style2. rupenye org kawen block 100plus marsiling. the boys kompang wave kt ktrg, then sy tny, zahirah wave pt drg eh? die ckp tk, then die citekan psl perna mat2 kt lorry wave pt die n kwn ke sedare die, gitulah, tkpntg sgt.hahax ok, pastu smp rumah saye :) then sleeping time!!!

p/s:jellybeans yg dr pink box tu sdp!! n mmg addictive pn~hazwan,awk beli pat maner? =)
pp/s:aljunied bagusssssssssssssssssss sgt.farihin bgs.imanuddin bgs, rahmatullah bgs, congrats congrats kru lanchang kuning sa-kalian! :)

-kenangan (ter)indah-

syahirah aiman

2008-05-17T11:16:00.002Z

assalamualaikum all

so i have been abandoning this blog for too long now///

hmm so

the exams are kinda over, and the papers which i know i did badly are nahu and syariah. dangg. nahu tu bcoz i didnt study. and syariah because of poor time management. therefore ppl, beware!!! the twin evils of exam-taking. learn from my mistakessss. dont ever repeat them yeah self?

good

that done, i wanna say tat e pulau ubin trip was freakin fantabulous. except the dogs part. i hate dogs. and i fell. cant control the damn two wheels vehicles, flew off my drive(kinda), and landed squat on my side. reminded me at that mo of my yucky skateboard fall whose repercussions i still bear nw :(
plus, the was a hurted green snake tree, a harmless bloke, injured and thus unable to complete his venture across the great tarred terrain. i was behind k. and didnt care at all about the green outline looming in front. well, k. wanted to make sure evrybody saw it and know abt it. all happily whizzed past despite his warnings but i was rendered stationary. stupid. i am brave u noe. lol

2008-04-26T15:01:00.012Z

one of those lists which if ur in the mood, are quite fun to fill, but if u arent, seems to be childish, lame, and time+energy wasting.:) (Tagged by Amirah,Siti)

1) At what age do you wish to marry?

when the time is rite, *winks* but- do you know that i am actually AFRAID of tying the knot?- true fact, but a debatable one, loll

2) What I want most right now?

happiness.contentment.all A1s/distinctions/mumtaz syaraf/100%/etc.jannatul firdaus.a photographic memory.perfection.akhlak Rasulullah sallahualaihiwasalam.constant remembrance of Allah.everything good.oh, and money dont hurt one bit ^_^->jamilah's fave emoticon, btw.lol.pinjam skjp eh.

3) Who is the person you trust the most?

mom/dad/frens like ruqayyahabiibah/evrybody who trusts me/and even my sister fara! surprisex2...lol

4) Do you think you have enough confidence?

Alhamdulillah.enough to get by.ill share if u want me to.

5) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

'a' dream huh? ok its a single one, but it has many parts: a.jannah for me, my family, and all muslimins, ameen b.allahumma wahhid ummatal Islam c.to live and die in Medina, ameen d.Harvard degree e.beauty/wealth/intelligence/status.the works.(this last one are superficials, but nevertheless are desirable, no wrong in that either so long it doesnt contradicts with Islam, insyaAllah :) )

6) Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?

you just HAD to ask ME eh? here's the chowdown:

Rainbows are a striking and beautiful meteorological phenomenon caused by the refraction of light. In order for rainbows to form, the sun must be near the horizon, and there must be a heavy fog, mist, or rain opposite the sun. An observer standing between the sun and the rainbow would see a 180 degree arc of colors which run through the visible spectrum from red to violet. In some cases, if conditions are right, double rainbows will form, with a pale rainbow in reversed colors above the primary rainbow, and in other instances, a fully circular rainbow has been observed, usually from inside an aircraft flying over the Earth.Although rainbows have been observed, written about, and depicted in art for centuries, their cause was not understood until physics began to explore the properties of light. Essentially, the cause of a rainbow is the reflection of sunlight through individual drops of water. Light enters the water and reflects from the opposite side of the water drop, bouncing back through the point of entry. Because the angle or refraction of the light changes as it bounces back, it filters the light into different colors, which arrange themselves with red at the top and violet at the bottom because red is the longest wave length, and violet is the shortest.

7) What are you afraid to lose the most right now?

Everything.

8) Do you believe in eternity love?

Allah's love is eternal.and love for His Propet,peace be upon him.so is a mother's/father's, and i hope im not risking theirs for others'.

9) If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

Depends.still searching/just leave it be to God :)

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

happy-spreader,confident,brave (syg kamu mir,xoxox lol)

11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

Ilmu, Iman, Amal, Taqwa. my mantra.lol

then comes the

Looks,Wealth,Family Status(like Nabi's hadith)

12) What type of person do you hate the most?

man 'adAllaha war Rasul,insyaAllah,ameen.and ppl yg too similar wif my attitude/lol/dont ask me why,idk,but not hate lah.hate is too strong.just void of love for.lol.

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

thats a RhetoriC.of course i do///! it shows that YOU DONT, u list-questions maker!! dah lah tny soalan psl rainbow loll.pnat tau org copy paste info.hahaxx

14) Do you believe in God?

Yes.Allahul Waahidul Qohhar.

15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

Faith.Family.Health.sorry i just CANT give single answers~

16) Do you find it is a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

the scd, im blessed with plenty trustworthy, baekkkkk ones, syukr lillah, the first, not this moment/idk/no comment takeurpick:)

17) At this point of time, would you rather be a heartbreaker or heartbroken?

two negatives? id choose neither, duh~~ id rather be a hearthealer.so nice.like 'charmed', remember the 3 witches show?loll or a heartsurgeon. God, the market's good now~heexx~

18) What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

one who is trustworthy,dependable,constant,not boring,etc, but u should ask them: what kind of friend do u want syahirah to be? i would lurve to hear ur replies darlinksss!! tag!!

19) Describe the person who tagged you in 6 words.

eh.like question 10.im out of adjectives.shucks.hw abt: hyper-intellligent-super-wonderful-amazing-temanbaik.can rite? hahax

20) The place you wanted to go most with your loved ones?

wanted??? why past tense -since mdm shriffa teach grammer,ive been noticing tinks--well actually, since even before she taught, i have been a bit particular abt these things, tho for myself, i make exceptions...lol-THIS IS A LONGGG POST BTW!!!!

jannah.thats e answer.

Tag 8 people:Eight of those who reads this blog of mine,-but, wait- i dont think theyre too many,so,all are welcome!! c'mon YOU! copy and paste! hayya bisur'ah! loll

post number 67

2008-04-23T15:51:00.005Z

''i donch noe how guud it feels~~"-aisha, age 5

lol

okayyy.since im soooo fond of lists, i wanna make another one:

THINGS i MISS:

radio shows (really wackyyyy and zane-eyy ones!)

heroes/gilmore girls/the make

going out with girlfriends tryin out clothes and making a ruckus EVRYWHERE we go *lol* (btw, bought 3 new dresses>pretty ones of course, like duh~~ok.lemme wear once then can exchange2 =) yeay!)

TALKING sensibly happily voluntarily with Principal

Masjid Kampung Siglap tahfiz class on Sunday

A math

my mickey mouse tent, hahaxxx

typing haha with xxx like above..lol..

////////////!SWIMMING!/////////////

being not obsessed with perfection

~~~vacationing with family~~~

pining and longing like MAD for HARVARD

and MEDINA!!! but i still do miss it even now, not that im saying that i dont miss HARVARD anymore, but you get what i mean.

ORANGE JUICE>OJ>>>>>PB&J>>>>>>anything orange juice coz its the most fantabulous most amazingly wonderful Subhanallah yummy MasyaAllah delicious most nutritious and completely refreshing drink in the WHOLE ENTIRE WIDEr than wide WORLD

narrative ENGLISH essay. GP diluted my language, mild-downed(?)lol my emotions, rationalized my thoughts, toned-down my blow-ups, caged my feelings, deviated my meanings, reflected away my visions. get it???! i like all my essays which i wrote. the crappy ones were especially funn-nay~~.there's like this one time, for mid-year i think, i wrote about a LAWYER who had an anger management problem that he kicked or something a homeless beggar. Grisham-inspired minus the succint language and 600 plus pages and 3 month editing process, it was a complete fluke. so lame that it wasn't even funny anymore. i think i just passed it or f-l-d or smtg. i need a remembrall

speaking of which:

I MISS THE ANTICIPATION FOR THE NEXT HARRY POTTER BOOK

AND JOHN RIDLEY

AND CARL HIAASEN

AND BLABLABLA WRITERS

OL KORRECT. this post is much too long to sustain your concentration and focus, so i will stop this interestingly(/increasingly) lengthy list here

the end. :)

2008-04-13T13:25:00.005Z

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

assalamualaikum.

i miss my old life so much.

i want to rewind time, 2 years back.

-but of course, i cant-

Allah, help me...

i'm not saying that now's not fine.

in fact, i think this year is THE BEST MOST INTERESTING YEAR YET, not counting the year I GOT BITTEN BY A MONKEY. lol. will blog about that per consumer demand. do YOU wanna hear? tag!

haha

im a lists fan. heres a list:

why i like year oh-six:

1- i am with my crapness zane-neyy persianophile and arty fartsy mathematical gene-ni-ess mates: RQYYH&HBH

2- the school. the teachers. malay period WAS DA BOMB. lol. hate slang language, but anyways, for illustration purposes, u learn to make exceptions.:P

3- i learnt geo and math and science, whom of which i severely utterly desperately miss and long and pine. you three, i see a future in us. we WILL be reunited SOON as i finish this year kay///

4- NO TUITION>NO ANGRY tak boleh NEGOTIABLE TEACHERS>WAKE UP AT SIXfifteen>ABSOLUTELY NEGATIVELY UNDENIABLY NO SCHOOL ON SATURDAYS

5- tahfiz at MKS and pakai baju matching2 dgn ruq...so cute...

why this year rox my sox:

1- ACTIVE involvement in school activities: nadi lughah, itmawat, competitions, etc

2- SPORTS ORIENTED LIFESTYLE. -netball, track and field, SWIMMING-i miss swimming~~~ nk g kebun~~~ok tknk. nk g SENtoSA

3- my classmates and neighboring classmates ARE SOOOOO KEWLLLL. ditto almost all the people of mwt.lol.maybe bcoz im more extroverted now.lol.was insosh a coupla years back// hee~~~

love y'all :).... and all the people i came to noe this year: soleha, khadija, anis, hafiza -btw, ni bkn mwt ppl, tp org2 seberang tambak causeway lol-, and every one elsess, (*lasssss*)

4- because its graduation year {!!!}

5- KNOWLEDGE AND INFORMATION INPUT... OH LORD ALMIGHTY, YA AZIZ YA QOHHAR YA ALIM YA SAMI' YA BASIR< /i want, i need photographic memory, ameen/ > :)

hmm... inna niamaka alayya qod tawaffarat. ya Allah, ij'alni syakuran, Allahumma inni nauzubika minat takubburi wat tafakhur.

حتى لا أطيل في كلامي-إن خير الكلام ما قلّ و دلّ، وبالله التوفيق والهداية، والسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

haha. demam munazarah :)

-peace, out-

2008-04-08T14:54:00.007Z

i'm HERE

hello~

whoaaaaaa~~~~life's ride too turbulent. can i transit in mauritius? please?

Ya Robb

10 days? pristine beaches...shocKING bLUE liquid... ameen ya Allah =)

these few days are SOOOOO tiring

nak ckp achievements pls. 'self-praise time: skip'

1-TRACKSSSS: 800 METRES jogging + 1 KILOMETRE sprinting = me, now

-back aching, extensively, legs, weirdly, untouched-

2-POSTERSSSSSSSSSS: alhamdulillah ive finished doing the munazarah poster!!! i think habiibah and me can work extremely very2 very2 well together designing, coz she can design and i can edit/input data/concept conceiving,lol//// tp yg pntg mmg puas hati bila da siap, ESPECIALLY IF : kalau dibyr...! Adilah, you owe me 10 bucks for the class poster. n btw, this is my 2nd!!! time collaborating with biib...*shh,jgn blang org yg tak tau*

3-SLEEPING WAYYYYY LEIGHHHT: this one is a vice which is soooo harmful but, kinda of an achievement, word(s): if theres a will, theres a way

-ok, done-

extra note to whoever whos reading this blog of mine: i am so extra confused. n btw, jamilah n fathin makes for good class sit-besiders: *secret*x726385-darent tell,y'all, shhhh~~~ unless if u wanna write an autobiography of me and it will be guaranteed as a bestseller, thatsss ouhhkkayss XD lol. i wanna sleep and have fun and paint and SWIM!!! sponsors and company needed, tag please, if u are one... ;p

this adjective describes life...

-tara~~~

2008-03-28T15:10:00.002Z

tooo manyyyyyyy thoughts to type.

hope i wont lose them all.

but keep them, forever.

ameen.

2008-03-19T08:44:00.002Z

tis is syahirah, reminding myself first before everyone else. :) try to read everything,ya...

Langkah Setan Menelanjangi Wanita

Setan dalam menggoda manusia memiliki berbagai macam strategi, dan yang sering dipakai adalah dengan memanfaatkan hawa nafsu, yang memang memiliki kecenderungan mengajak kepada keburukan (ammaratun bis su’). Setan tahu persis kecenderungan nafsu kita, dia terus berusaha agar manusia keluar dari garis yang telah ditentukan Allah, termasuk melepaskan hijab atau pakaian musli-mah. Berikut ini tahapan-tahapannya.

I. Menghilangkan Definisi Hijab

Dalam tahap ini setan membisik-kan kepada para wanita, bahwa pakaian apapun termasuk hijab (penutup) itu tidak ada kaitannya dengan agama, ia hanya sekedar pakaian atau mode hiasan bagi para wanita. Jadi tidak ada pakaian syar’i, pakaian ya pakaian, apa pun bentuk dan namanya.
Sehingga akibatnya, ketika zaman telah berubah, atau kebudayaan manusia telah berganti, maka tidak ada masalah pakaian ikut ganti juga. Demikian pula ketika seseorang berpindah dari suatu negeri ke negeri yang lain, maka harus menyesuaikan diri dengan pakaian penduduknya, apapun yang mereka pakai.
Berbeda halnya jika seorang wanita berkeyakinan, bahwa hijab adalah pakaian syar’i (identitas keislaman), dan memakainya adalah ibadah bukan sekedar mode. Biarpun hidup kapan saja dan di mana saja, maka hijab syar’i tetap dipertahankan.Apabila seorang wanita masih bertahan dengan prinsip hijabnya, maka setan beralih dengan strategi yang lebih halus. Caranya?
Pertama, Membuka Bagian Tangan
Telapak tangan mungkin sudah terbiasa terbuka, maka setan mem-bisik kan kepada para wanita agar ada sedikit peningkatan model yakni membuka bagian hasta (siku hingga telapak tangan). “Ah tidak apa-apa, kan masih pakai jilbab dan pakai baju panjang? Begitu bisikan setan. Dan benar sang wanita akhirnya memakai pakain model baru yang menampakkan tangannya, dan ternyata para lelaki yang melihat nya juga biasa-biasa saja. Maka setan berbisik,” Tuh tidak apa-apa kan?

Kedua, Membuka Leher dan Dada

Setelah menampakkan tangan menjadi kebiasaan, maka datanglah setan untuk membisikkan hal baru lagi. “Kini buka tangan sudah lumrah, maka perlu ada peningkatan model pakaian yang lebih maju lagi, yakni terbuka bagian atas dada kamu.” Tapi jangan sebut sebagai pakaian terbuka, hanya sekedar sedikit untuk mendapatkan hawa, agar tidak gerah. Cobalah! Orang pasti tidak akan peduli, sebab hanya bagian kecil saja yang terbuka.
Maka dipakailah pakaian model baru yang terbuka bagian leher dan dadanya dari yang model setengah lingkaran hingga yang model bentuk huruf “V” yang tentu menjadikan lebih terlihat lagi bagian sensitif lagi dari dadanya.

Ketiga, Berpakian Tapi Telanjang

Setan berbisik lagi, “Pakaian kok hanya gitu-gitu saja, cari model atau bahan lain yang lebih bagus! Tapi apa ya? Sang wanita bergumam. “Banyak model dan kain yang agak tipis, lalu bentuknya dibuat yang agak ketat biar lebih enak dipandang,” setan memberi ide baru.
Maka tergodalah si wanita, di carilah model pakaian yang ketat dan kain yang tipis bahkan transparan. “Nggak apa-apa kok, kan potongan pakaiannya masih panjang, hanya bahan dan modelnya saja yang agak berbeda, biar nampak lebih feminin,” begitu dia menambahkan. Walhasil pakaian tersebut akhirnya membudaya di kalangan wanita muslimah, makin hari makin bertambah ketat dan transparan, maka jadilah mereka wanita yang disebut oleh Nabi sebagai wanita kasiyat ‘ariyat (berpakaian tetapi telanjang).

Keempat, Agak di Buka Sedikit

Setelah para wanita muslimah mengenakan busana yang ketat, maka setan datang lagi. Dan sebagaimana biasanya dia menawarkan ide baru yang sepertinya segar dan enak, yakni dibisiki wanita itu, “Pakaian seperti ini membuat susah berjalan atau duduk, soalnya sempit, apa nggak sebaiknya di belah hingga lutut atau mendekati paha?” Dengan itu kamu akan lebih leluasa, lebih kelihatan lincah dan enerjik.”
Lalu dicobalah ide baru itu, dan memang benar dengan dibelah mulai bagian bawah hingga lutut atau mendekati paha ternyata membuat lebih enak dan leluasa, terutama ketika akan duduk atau naik ke jok mobil. “Yah tersingkap sedikit nggak apa-apa lah, yang penting enjoy,” katanya.
Inilah tahapan awal setan merusak kaum wanita, hingga tahap ini pakaian masih tetap utuh dan panjang, hanya model, corak, potongan dan bahan saja yang dibuat berbeda dengan hijab syar’i yang sebenarnya. Maka kini mulailah setan pada tahapan berikutnya.

II. Terbuka Sedikit Demi Sedikit

Kini setan melangkah lagi, dengan trik dan siasat lain yang lebih ampuh, tujuannya agar para wanita menampak kan bagian aurat tubuhnya.

Pertama, Membuka Telapak Kaki dan Tumit.

Setan Berbisik kepada para wanita, “Baju panjang benar-benar membuat repot, kalau hanya dengan membelah sedikit bagiannya masih kurang leluasa, lebih enak kalau di potong saja hingga atas mata kaki.” Ini baru agak longgar. “Oh ada yang kelupaan, kalau kamu bakai baju demikian, maka jilbab yang besar tidak cocok lagi, sekarang kamu cari jilbab yang kecil agar lebih serasi dan gaul, toh orang tetap menamakannya dengan jilbab.”
Maka para wanita yang terpengaruh dengan bisikan ini buru-buru mencari model pakaian yang dimaksudkan. Tak ketinggalan sepatu hak tinggi, yang kalau untuk berjalan mengeluarkan suara yang menarik perhatian orang.

Kedua, Membuka Seperempat Hingga Separuh Betis

Terbuka telapak kaki telah biasa ia lakukan, dan ternyata orang-orang yang melihat juga tidak begitu peduli. Maka setan kembali berbisik, “Ternyata kebanyakan manusia menyukai apa yang kamu lakukan, buktinya mereka tidak bereaksi apa-apa, kecuali hanya beberapa orang. Kalau langkah kakimu masih kurang leluasa, maka cobalah kamu cari model lain yang lebih enak, bukankah kini banyak rok setengah betis dijual di pasaran? Tidak usah terlalu mencolok, hanya terlihat kira-kira sepuluh senti saja.” Nanti kalau sudah terbiasa, baru kamu cari model baru yang terbuka hingga setengah betis.”
Benar-benar bisikan setan dan hawa nafsu telah menjadi penasehat pribadinya, sehingga apa yang saja yang dibisikkan setan dalam jiwanya dia turuti. Maka terbiasalah dia mema-kai pakaian yang terlihat separuh betisnya kemana saja dia pergi.

Ketiga, Terbuka Seluruh Betis

Kini di mata si wanita, zaman benar-benar telah berubah, setan telah berhasil membalikkan pandangan jernihnya. Terkadang sang wanita berpikir, apakah ini tidak menyelisihi para wanita di masa Nabi dahulu. Namun buru-buru bisikan setan dan hawa nafsu menyahut, “Ah jelas enggak, kan sekarang zaman sudah berubah, kalau zaman dulu para lelaki mengangkat pakaiannya hingga setengah betis, maka wanitanya harus menyelisihi dengan menjulurkannya hingga menutup telapak kaki, tapi kini lain, sekarang banyak laki-laki yang menurunkan pakaiannya hingga bawah mata kaki, maka wanitanya harus menyelisihi mereka yaitu dengan mengangkatnya hingga setengah betis atau kalau perlu lebih ke atas lagi, sehingga nampak seluruh betisnya.”
Tetapi… apakah itu tidak menjadi fitnah bagi kaum laki-laki,” gumamnya. “Fitnah? Ah itu kan zaman dulu, di masa itu kaum laki-laki tidak suka kalau wanita menampakkan auratnya, sehingga wanita-wanita mereka lebih banyak di rumah dan pakaian mereka sangat tertutup. Tapi sekarang sudah berbeda, kini kaum laki-laki kalau melihat bagian tubuh wanita yang terbuka malah senang dan mengatakan ooh atau wow, bukankah ini berarti sudah tidak ada lagi fitnah, karena sama-sama suka? Lihat saja model pakaian di sana-sini, dari yang di emperan hingga yang yang bermerek kenamaan, seperti Kristian Dior, semuanya menawarkan model yang dirancang khusus untuk wanita maju di zaman ini. Kalau kamu tidak mengikuti model itu akan menjadi wanita yang ketinggalan zaman.”
Demikianlah, maka pakaian yang menampakkan seluruh betis biasa dia kenakan, apalagi banyak para wanita yang memakainya dan sedikit sekali orang yang mempermasalahkan itu. Kini tibalah saatnya setan melancarkan tahap terakhir dari siasatnya untuk melucuti hijab wanita.

III. Serba Mini
Setelah pakaian yang menampak kan betis menjadi pakaian sehari-hari dan dirasa biasa-biasa saja, maka datanglah bisikan setan yang lain. “Pakaian membutuhkan variasi, jangan itu-itu saja, sekarang ini modelnya rok mini, dan agar serasi rambut kepala harus terbuka, sehingga benar-benar kelihatan indah.”
Maka akhirnya rok mini yang menampakkan bagian bawah paha dia pakai, bajunya pun bervariasi, ada yang terbuka hingga lengan tangan, terbuka bagian dada sekaligus bagian punggung nya dan berbagai model lain yang serba pendek dan mini. Koleksi pakaiannya sangat beraneka ragam, ada pakaian pesta, berlibur, pakaian kerja, pakaian resmi, pakaian malam, sore, musim panas, musim dingin dan lain-lain, tak ketinggalan celana pendek separuh paha pun dia miliki, model dan warna rambut juga ikut bervariasi, semuanya telah dicoba.
Begitulah sesuatu yang sepertinya mustahil untuk dilakukan, ternyata kalau sudah dihiasi oleh setan, maka segalanya menjadi serba mungkin dan diterima oleh manusia.
Hingga suatu ketika, muncul ide untuk mandi di kolam renang terbuka atau mandi di pantai, di mana semua wanitanya sama, hanya dua bagian paling rawan saja yang tersisa untuk ditutupi, kemaluan dan buah dada. Mereka semua mengenakan pakaian yang sering disebut dengan “bikini”. Karena semuanya begitu, maka harus ikut begitu, dan na’udzu billah bisikan setan berhasil, tujuannya tercapai, “Menelanjangi Kaum Wanita.” Selanjutnya terserah kamu wahai wanita, kalian semua sama, telanjang di hadapan laki-laki lain, di tempat umum. Aku berlepas diri kalau nanti kelak kalian sama-sama di neraka. Aku hanya menunjukkan jalan, engkau sendiri yang melakukan itu semua, maka tanggung sendiri semua dosamu” Setan tak mau ambil resiko.

Penutup
Demikian halus, cara yang digunakan setan, sehingga manusia terjeru-mus dalam dosa tanpa terasa. Maka hendaklah kita semua, terutama orang tua jika melihat gejala menyimpang pada anak-anak gadis dan para wanita kita sekecil apapun, segera secepatnya diambil tindakan. Jangan biarkan berlarut-larut, karena kalau dibiarkan dan telah menjadi kebiasaan, maka sangat sulit bagi kita untuk mengatasinya.
Membiarkan mereka membuka aurat berarti merelakan mereka mendapatkan laknat Allah, kasihanilah mereka, selamatkan para wanita muslimah, jangan jerumuskan mereka ke dalam kebinasaan yang menyeng-sarakan, baik di dunia maupun di akhirat. Wallahu a’lam bis shawab.

Sumber ide dan pokok pikiran: Kitab “At ta’ari asy syaithani”, Adnan ath-Tharsyah, disadur dengan bebas.

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creds:
from: http://ummusalma.wordpress.com/2007/03/01/langkah-setan-menelanjangi-wanita/
spotted at: http://oldskulz2004.blogspot.com/

2008-03-19T08:06:00.003Z

ivefoundit: a fitting song for now...LOL

Something tells me-
this may be my intuition-
My thoughts keep moving into this direction
Shame theres nothing to conclude...

You've got a way to get my attention
When I'm searching for the pieces I can't find
Doubts arise, will your puzzle fit with mine?
Shame there's nothing to conclude...

Take it or leave it,
I can't be sure if your right for me...
so I'll take it slow for you

It's true we know that we don't know
and we cant change that
so why even take my time?

Walking blind,
all our words collide
We just keep on pushing through
keep on, keep on

Leave it to me to say a couple of things that I don't quite mean
I know how it seems
If you can try and understand
that I don't know what I want
but I know who I am...

2008-03-16T16:15:00.008Z

i don't understand:

1-life

2-the way i think

3-the way other ppl think

4-and act

5-why sch starts SO EARLY

6-nonexistent dreams

7-why time moves so FAST

8-why i don't act what i know(al-ilmu bila amal...)

9-people who think that they are SO SMART but actually they are on THE WRONG PATH

10-why forbidden fruit is THE sweetest...? c'mon guys. it sux ok.

11-computers/laptops which DO NOT COORPERATE WITH ME and ignores MY PROMPTS. u guys doubly stoinks oooo.kayyyy. fhm????!

ciao

arrivederci

my case point is illustrated by the main pic (dont understand? nvrmind. join the club. free membership.)

(btw i like this post)(i never liked green)(life allows exceptions)

2008-03-13T03:15:00.003Z

thank you Allah

a tribute video to me, you, and our lives

-entwined-

2008-03-11T17:10:00.006Z

today in words, in no particular order:

Starbucks> earthworm> chicken>

kambing> toilet kecik>

badminton> backup> hilang>

dah buang tong sampah> tak fair> best>

penat> boring> bingit uh> basi>

bus thirteen, forty eight>

ustaz naik motor> ustazah saturday sunday aje ada>

baru kau tahu>

CEPATLAH!!!>

أنا لا أعرف > dah~~!!!> wafiq>

kakak pakai baju ape> all pink>

tak janji> panas> jabal nur>

سروال بني> hujan> tutup pakai tissue>

mocha or caramel?> western or asian?> choices>

fadila> telekung shiny2> paint smell> delicious>

insurance> health> make sure>

next time> alcohol+mercury>

diam> faham takkk???>

scotch tape> kucing> travelator> DO NOT PLAY ON!>

عطيفة anak رملي> milo> melacca>

sini2 semua pink!!!> blue> hijau takde kawan> black>

ust cakap ape?> infaq fi sabiLILLAH<<>

=alhamdulillah~fun days in retrospect!!!
آسف إذا أخطأت/أخطأنا
بارك اللّهم لنا في جميع الأحوال والأوقات
syukran ALL-EVERYONE-!!! love y'all much

!جيد نادي اللغة، جيد -lol-

towards good> better> best :)

one two seven aye amp

2008-03-02T16:23:00.005Z

بسم الله الرمن الرحيم

boo! assalamualaikum all!!

been busy busy busy lately with school,etc.lol. (so thats why!) haha. if PRE uni's like this, i cant imagine what UNI will be like~~~

arghhh

things of interest:

1-"starfishnyer mate katne?" -au kama qolat: Zuliana,yg baru dpt laptop baru congrats!! aiyoo kene buat homeworkssss!!

What kind of eyes does a starfish have? From the look of it, you might think that a starfish has no eyes.But in fact, it has an eye on the end of each arm. Most starfish have five arms, so they also have five eyes, but some starfish have as many as twenty arms (or more), and as many eyes. The eyes of a starfish are a tiny spot of red pigment that is sensitive to light. Nerves run from the pigment spots to the starfish's central nerve ring.The signals from the eyespots affect the animal's behavior, enabling it to avoid light that is too bright and change its light preferences according to the time of day, water chemistry, and other factors.Since a starfish has no brain, it would not be able to make much use of images, even if its eyes were able to form them.

2-Pre+viewing Mount Faber

with-Nadi Lughawians =)

it was-Fun! Love the greeneries, serenity

lessons learnt-Singaporeans are ruthless drivers, literally.hitchhiking IS NOT done here. i asked my dad: would u pick up a hitchhiker? he said:no i wont, its not practised here...!!
p/s:i flagged down about 20 vehicles(i think) from cars, vans, trucks to buses.NONE slowed down. only one or two polite drivers smiled but waved 'no'.
99% swooshed by ignoramusly/////// grrrr...
'NO HEART NO MANNERS NO COMPASSION NO SYMPATHY'

3-Viruses suck.
i know enough pc problems to host an IT consultancy website
lol, not.
-but u get what i mean-
the tech lingo: proxy, ip, key ports, hacktool rootkit, gammima, dll, code extension, malware, adware, firewall, ssdp, defragmentation, sweep, run command prompt

quadwakindiggmaligooveer!

-end of thread-

2008-02-19T18:05:00.004Z

contest answers and winner!!!

winner:ruqayyah

answers:as follows-

1. Barbie's colors: pink and purple

2.Julian Wilson
3.Umar ibn Abd al-Aziz (c. 682 - February, 720 [1] (Arabic: عمر بن عبد العزيز) was an Umayyad caliph who ruled from 717 to 720. Unlike previous Umayyad caliphs, he was not a hereditary successor to the former caliph, but was appointed. But he was also a cousin of the former caliph, being the son of Abd al-Malik's younger brother Abd al-Aziz.

=)

2008-02-14T16:10:00.002Z

athifah posted this n i tot id give it a go:

***What Syahirah Means***

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

2008-02-14T16:10:00.001Z

forgotten stuff stinks the worst when theyre finally found.

welcome back.

(eww!)

2008-01-24T10:32:00.000Z

~~!!!CONTEST!!!~~

i want to try this out...

**DETAILS** for barrelstare.blogspot.com trivia contest

DATE:: tag in ur answer latest by 3rd december 2008, using ur real name, so i can contact u if u win.. :)

PRIZE:: a token really, a henna applicator and a tube of kohl (mecca-imported,lol) enter for fun though *winks* the most correct/nearest to correct answer will win...

WHO CAN PARTICIPATE??:: you, my honourable blog reader, and you, my most-welcomed blog hopper, and you, my respected blog chancer-upon...(in plain english, anybody) p/s:answer/tag as many times as u want

::QUESTIONS::

(1) What is Barbie™'s color combination?

(2) Name the upcoming super-talented surfer frm queensland australia who most recently contested at Hurley Burleigh Pro Junior and was listed as transworldsurf's most promising groms.(easy one, too many hints!! =D)

(3) The Caliph Umar bin Abdul Aziz lived from which year to which year? (in Masehi)

end :) send ur answers a.s.a.p!

__________________________________________________________________________

p/s:EOM square....nice rite... :)

2008-01-20T16:32:00.000Z

Any youtuber would have heard about the Davos question by now, as its time to rate and comment, but for those who didnt: Every year many of the world's top leaders attend the World Economic Forum in Davos, Switzerland, to discuss how to make the world a better place.This year, you get to join them.First, submit a video answering The Davos Question:"What one thing do you think that countries, companies or individuals must do to make the world a better place in 2008?" (submission time's over btw)
so this one caught my eye>>> (+its already scripted :P)

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Added: December 22, 2007

Please read: According to "themanyone":

"Money can be used to make a garden but it can't make things grow.
Money can help mom and dad make ends meet but it can't keep them together. It can buy books but it will not make you well-read. Those things take work. Work is superior to money and can be used in its place, and with greater value. A person who is not lazy is not poor, no matter what the tax man says."

According to ProteanView:

Some people create a meal without a recipe while others rearrange the plate of food served to them and wonder why the meal is the same.Money strips the self worth of a culture by rendering paper and coin more valuable than people and the actual goods & services they represent. It's not human nature; it's the nature of money.Money is a 'middle man' & controlled by a third party who adjusts interest rates for the good of those who don't need to be a part of or profit from my exchange with another.

All I wish to do is remove that middle man.

I don't want my value adjusted for someone else's good. We're as dependent on it as crack and we never second guess whether or not we need it. We're forced to keep acquiring money when our worth is built in, it's constant. We think of a farmer as a farmer and a teacher as a teacher. Civilization leads us to believe we are worth one skill. One who grows vegetables is just as much a cook, teacher, hunter, babysitter, etc. Civilization has caused us to feel worthless if we don't possess a skill corporations need.

Civilization encourages us to do only one skill and rely on corporations for the rest. We'll need money to get the very things we can produce on our own from corporations or businesses. We possess survival skills and that has actual, practical worth to anyone in any society unless we're taught that we are of little value, so we work for money to purchase what we can produce.We can teach, cook, garden, sew, build, repair, grow, babysit, hunt, give health care, clean. Money has us thinking that we are only worth what a company wants from us & that if we don't possess these things, we're worthless.

Globalization was once a pipe dream. It took think tanks (Council on Foreign Relations, Trilateral Commission, Bilderberg Group, Bohemian Grove) and decades of studying & lobbying before a company from Britain could own US ports and a company from UAE could make an offer to purchase them. If we don't start or consider something until we have all of the answers, we'll never accomplish anything.

I'm sure the Wright Bros couldn't explain exactly how they would fly. Try, instead, to get the overall idea of my point. I'm sure there were numerous "what if"ers of the Wright Brothers, too. I'm sure the micro-questions were rational. They were wrong.The very things most appreciate and defend wouldn't be if the powers that be needed all of the answers instead of looking at the benefits and taking action.Some people create a meal without a recipe while others rearrange the plate of food served to them and wonder why the meal is the same.

We now crave, defend and run towards that which makes us physiologically, emotionally and mentally sick & punish those who wish to break free from it.

*See Mikhail Bakunin, collectivist anarchism*
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Added: December 22, 2007
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2008-01-17T15:43:00.000Z

funny how someone can alter your feelings...

from
insanely happy
to
unimaginably sad

from
liberating carefreedness
to
binding worry

as if they dictate our feelings
control
our
thoughts.

this was supposed to be a happy post. with pictures.

2008-01-07T13:57:00.000Z

so, this is the first time i'm putting a vid. haha. so lame right???

this is an absolutely terr-iff-fick video of teaching ABCs(أ ب ت) the Islamic wayy

klw tk tgk rugi!

the khat's sooo cool

!i want to write my name the way he did!

2008-01-02T08:16:00.000Z

this pic is in no way connected to this post, but i put it here anw idk why

so today was the first day of school year two thousand and eight anno domini.

i am in pre university two.

the advanced levels going to be this year.

*exclamation marks*

!!!

PART I
some tragedy happened early this morning. lol. so i woke up, right, grabbed my towel and toothbrush(yes i keep it outta toilet) and headed 147 degrees towards my bathroom.(wait. i dont have a BATH. showerroom? haha) so i noticed a c**kr***h scuttling the same way, and went complete hysterics, fetched my mother, who grabbed a broom but didnt manage to kill it. ARGHHHH. i hate hate hate hate hate anything with feelers cept butterflies! the dreaded c-thing sought refuge still in the toilet, leaving this poor gigantic homo sapien no options left but NOT to shower in HER OWN toilet!!! *bangs table/chair/gravel/anything in sight,really*
'nuff said
PART II
thus the poor little poor girl(lol) had to shower in the KITCHEN bathroom, where theres NO WATER HEATER. not a big deal you say? but i have AT LEAST 10 maidens brewing hot water for me everyday, save the day the c-thing decided to go in my toilet. and they scrub good too!
anyways, a good tip for anyone whose fate is as unfortunate as mine, whether youre on a camping trip, in alaska, or at your kampung where theres no hot water for showering and youre too lazy to boil it: while pouring the water onto your head, jump as high as possible, as fast as you can, with the most number of jumps in the shortest period of time, so as to cancel out the coldness. thats the ONLY way to deal with showering using freezing hage two ooo.
water, friend/foe, as explained by damien hobgood.
PART III
which brings me to my new year resolution: not to be afraid of animals!!! (even the grossest of the gross) ought to watch steve irwin(the late) vids to learn a few tricks, eh? lol. and to not be late. (at least not awfully late.heh.)

THE END.

:)

2008-01-01T09:09:00.000Z

Inspired by habiibah's post, i decided to do some copy n pasting too, but unlike her, no pix! :P a bit wordy, but c'mon, read it!!! there's nothing else to do...lol

*Diambil dari blog: http://pencarinur.blogspot.com/ Dan dari e-mail ahlulquranpts
Semoga bermanfaat !

~ Kepada yang bercinta dan yang bakal bercinta~

Pernah seketika dulu saya rasa saya tak berguna..Masa dalam kelas kawan-kawan semua tak suka..Saya nak 'join', kawan kata saya menyibuk..Ada pula yang kate saya kuat emo..Sikit-sikit nak marah..Padahal sebenarnye saya nak tegur mereka buat bising masa belajar..Lepas tu saya cuba buat lawakkononnya nak tarik perhatian orang lainsaya paling gembira bila ada orang gelak bila dengar lawak sayaterutamanya pelajar-pelajar perempuan..Budak-budak lelaki semua kata saya 'mat capub'(cari publisiti)..tapi saya tak kesah..asalkan ada yang terhibur..Tapi saya tetap merasakan kekosongan..Memang lumrah manusia..Seoarang lelaki akan tertarik kepada wanitaMacam itulah yang saya rasa..Saya tengok kawan-kawan dah ada yang 'couple'..Di dorm sms awek sampai pagi..ada yang call awek sampai satu malam boleh habis 10 ringgit..Saya mula berfikir.."Adakah aku perlu BERCINTA?"Dengan menggunakan akal seorang pelajar tingkatan 4 itu..saya pun mula menanam tekad untuk ber'couple'..Dan masa itulah saya kenal awak..saya rase saya dah jumpa orang yang paling penting dalam hidup saya..Mula-mula awak jual mahal..Tapi saya tak kisah..nak beli gak..akhirnya, dipendekkan cerita..saya pun mulalah BERCINTA.. Masa bercinta,memang saya sangat-sangat bersemangatApa orang kata..'ALL OUT'lah..haha..Saya selalu call awak,awak pun selalu call saya..'gayut' malam-malam..kadang-kadang saya pun habis RM10 satu malam..Tetapi segala PENGORBANAN yg dilakukan masa ber'couple' tu..Tidak terasa pun kehilangannya..Mase bercinta memang indah..Semuanya indah..Sikit-sikit gurau-gurauSikit-sikit gelak-gelakkalau merajuk men pujuk2..kalau 'birthday' kita sambut sama-sama..Untuk diri ini,terasa amat bahagia..Sebab masa itulah terasa diri ini dihargai..Saya pernah terikir..Biarlah kawan-kawan saya tu pandang saya semacam,kata saya macam-macam..Asalkan awak memahami saya..Satu hari saya dengar ceramah..Alhamdulillah..Dalam ceramah tu saya sedar,saya banyak buat dosadan saya kena brubah..Hidup saya mesti selari dengan Islam..Saya kena jadi baik..Sebab memang itu fitrah manusia..menginginakan kebaikan..semua orang nak masuk syurga kan?Sejak dari saat itu saya mula rapatkan diri dengan masjid..Rapatkan diri dengan Al-Quran..Selalu solat jemaah awal waktu..Selalu dengar tazkirah..Saya beli terjemahan Quran, sebab nak tadabbur QuranSaya beli dua, satu untuk saya, satu untuk awak,Saya taknak jadi baik seorang diri..jadi saya ajak awak sekali..Saya ajak awak baca Al-Quran..saya kejut awk bangun subuh..(calling)saya ajak awak saling beri tazkirah..Mula-mula awak terkejut dengan perubahan saya..Awak ingat saya dah nak jadi alim, nak brenti couple.Saya kata,kita bukan buat benda yang salah..bercinta kerana Allah..Kita couple tak macam orang lain..Orang lain couple 'jiwang-jiwang' je..ade yang siap wat mksiat lg..pegang-pegang tangan dan macam-macam lagi..Tapi kita couple baik-baik..Jaga batas-batas syara'..Tak guna ayat jiwang-jiwangjanji taknak jumpa, takut berlaku maksiat..cuma sms dan call je..Dan awk terima perubahan saya itu..Saya pun banyak nasihat awak..Awk pun terima..Walaupun kadang-kadang awak merajuk sebab teguran saya tuTapi saya faham, perubahan memerlukan masa..Dan akhirnya saya rasa..Hubungan kita semakin diredahai..Saya salu doa supaya kita akan kekal sampai ke gerbang perkahwinan..Dalam proses perubahan saya,Saya mula menyedari bahawa berdakwah itu wajib..Kita kena menyampaikan kepada orang tentang kebenaran.Kalau kita tidak berdakwah..kita akan dipertanggungjawabkan oleh Allah di akhirat kelak.sesuai dgn firmanNya dlm surah Al-A'raf,surah ke 7,ayat ke 164:Dan (ingatlah) ketika suatu umat diantara mereka berkata: "Mengapa kamumenasihati kaum yang Allah akanmembinasakan mereka atau mengazab merekadengan azab yang amat keras?" Merekamenjawab: "Agar kami mempunyai alasan(pelepas tanggung jawab) kepada Tuhanmu,dan supaya mereka bertakwa".Lepas tu saya mulalah beri tazkirah pada kawan-kawan dan adik-adikTegur mereka apa sahaja yang silap..Saya tak boleh tahan bila tengok orang buat salah/dose..Saya mesti nak tegur.Selemah2 iman tegur dengan hati, oleh sebab saya nak jadi orang kuat iman..Ape lagi..tegur je la depan-depan..huhu~~Lepas tu, satu masa..saya terbaca pasal couple.."COUPLE HARAM"Saya tak percaya..tapi bila baca detail-detail yang dia bagi..macam betul pulak..huhu~~tapi biasala..kalau kita suka satu benda tu..kita tetap akan cari alasan untuk 'membenarkan' pendapat kita..Saya pun buat tak tahu pasal benda tu..dan teruskan saja hubungan kita..kita tak buat maksiat..Kita jalan-jalan pegang tangan..tak jiwang-jiwang..Cuma saling ambil berat..Tanya khabar..Borak-borak..Siap bagi tzkirah lagi..Apa yang haramnya dengan benda ni?Tak kisahlah..Masa terus berlalu...Masa ni dah nak dekat Trial SPM..lagi tiga minggu sebelum trial..dalam masa tu, saya memang rajin study dengan kawan..buat study groupPada masa yang sama, bagi tazkirah..Ada yang terima..ada juga yang buat tak tahuKadang-kadang bila tegur..saya kena marah pula..macam-macamlah alasannyaada kata saya tegur tak berhikmah..ada yang kata saya menunjuk-nunjuk je..Tapi tak kisah..saya ada tempat mengadu..huhu~~Suatu masa..ketika sedang mentadabbur Al-Quran seorang diri..saya terjumpa ayat ini..Mengapa kamu suruh orang lain(mengerjakan) kebajikan, sedang kamumelupakan diri (kewajiban) mu sendiri,padahal kamu membaca Al Kitab (Taurat)?Maka tidakkah kamu berfikir?(Al-Baqarah, ayat 44)Saya pun terfikir.."Selama ini aku asyik tegur orang je.Tapi aku sendiri masih banyak kekurangan,Cepat marah, suka buang masa,ade gak dosa-dosa yang masih dilakukan..Macam mana ya?"Lepas tu terjumpa pula ayat ini..Dan janganlah kamu campur adukkan yanghak dengan yang batil dan janganlah kamusembunyikan yang hak itu, sedang kamumengetahui.(Al-Baqarah ayat 42)Tiba-tiba saya terfikir satu keritikan kawan.."Alah kau tu..cakap je berapi..gaya alim,tapi couple gak..sama aje kaudengan kami..tegur orang konon.."Berfikir sejenak..Sebenarnye ber'couple' ni boleh ke tidak?Adakah selama ini saya hanya menganggap ia boleh?Habis tu, kenapa saya rasa malu bila mak dan ayahtahu saya selalu berhubung dengan perempuan?Dan terkadang saya rasa serba salah?Macam-macam yang saya fikir..Dipendekkan cerita lagi sekali..saya ke Pulau Pinang untuk mengikuti satu seminar dkwh..Saya harap dengan seminar ni kefahaman saya mengenai dakwah akan lebih mantap..Dalam perjalanan ke seminar tu..saya masih sms lagi dengan awak dalam bas..sempat lagi pesan-pesan supaya jangan lupa baca Al-Quran hari ini, solat awal waktu..Dalam fikiran saya.."Ni kira dakwah juga..saling ingat-mengingati.."******Majlis malam itu berakhir dengan sesi ta'aruf,pukul 10 semua orang dah bebas untuk aktiviti sendiriLagipun kami semua penat..takkan nak panjang-panjangkan program sampai tengah malam..pihak penganjur pun faham..Tiba-tiba saya tergerak hati untuk bertanya dengan fasilitator yang ada di situ..Saya rasa inilah masa terbaik untuk tanya pendapat dia tentang couple.Tapi saya tragak-agak.."Kalaulah betul couple tu salah..habis tu,nakbuat macam mana? Aku kena clash ke?Alah,buat apa fikir macam tu..tanya je la. Kalautak buat salah, apa nak ditakutkan?"Lalu saya menghampiri 'Brother' fasilitator tu..Masa tu dia tengah membelek-belek terjemahan Al-Qurannya seorang diri."Assalamualaikum, bang, saya nak tanya sikitboleh?""Em,boleh..duduklah. Nta nak tanya apa?""Er..macam ni,sebelum saya terlibat dengan dakwah ni, saya ada kenal seorangkawan ni, perempuan la. Tapi bukanla setakat kawan biasa..rapat gak la. Bukan rapat biasa,tapi rapatla..""Bercinta ke?"Saya malu nak cakap yang saya couple. Nanti apa pula brother tu kate..mesti dia marah nnt. Saya pun angguk. Lepas tu saya tanya.."Sebenarnya..couple ni boleh ke tak bang?""Akhi, memang fitrah manusia, lelaki akan tertarik kepada perempuan, begitu juga perempuan akan tertarik kepada lelaki. Tapi dalam Islam, perasaan itu perlu dikawal dan ada batasnya. Pergaulan perlu dijaga. Allah firman dalam surah Al-Isra', surah ke 17, dalam ayat yg ke 32:Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina; sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji dan suatu jalan yang buruk.""Tapi bang,saya tak nampak pun yang kami ni menghampiri zina. Niat kami baik. Saya dah cuba sedaya upaya mengawal perhubungan kami. Sms pun takdelah jiwang-jiwang, selalu bagi tazkirah lagi. Kami selang-selang bagi, hari ni saya, esok dia."Saya tak mahu mengalah."Memang betul niat nta baik. Tapi ingat, niat tak pernah menghalalkan cara. Yang batil tetap sahaja batil, yang haq tetap haq. Cuba tengok ayat ni."Sambil brother tu bukak Al-Quran dia, dan tunjuk pada saya ayat ini:Dan (juga) kaum Ad dan Tsamud, dan sungguh telah nyata bagi kamu (kehancuran mereka) dari (puing-puing) tempat tinggal mereka. Dan setan menjadikan mereka memandang baikperbuatan-perbuatan mereka, lalu ia menghalangi mereka dari jalan (Allah), sedangkan mereka adalah orang-orang yang berpandangan tajam.(Surah Al-Anakabut,Surah 29, ayat 38)"Akhi, kalau nta paham ayat ni, sebenarnya apa yang berlaku pada nta ialah, setan telah buat nta pandang indah benda buruk yang nta lakukan. Walaupun nta berpandangan tajam, maksudnya nta berilmu tinggi. Memang pada mulanya niat nta baik, tapi ingat, syaitan itu sangat licik. Dia akan sedaya upaya buat nta terjerumus ke dalam kemaksiatan. Lagipun, takkanlah sepanjang masa nta sms dengan dia, nta ingat Allah. Mesti ada masanya nta hanya melayan perasaan dengan dia, kan?"Betul juga katanya. Lepas tu saya kata, "Tapi bang, saya dah janji dengan dia taknak jumpa lg. Sebab saya tahu kalau berjumpa nanti banyak bahayanya. Dan dia pun setuju. Kami sama-sama menjaga diri. Takkanlah ia boleh membawa kepada zina juga bang?""Em, betul, nta dah janji taknak jumpa dengan dia lagi. Nta dah dapatelakkan zina mata, zina tangan, zina kaki. kalau nta janji taknak call die pula, nta dapat elak zina telinga dan zina lidah. Tapi akh..masih ada zina yang tetap nta tak dapat elak apabila bercouple..""Zina hati?" Saya menduga."Betul, zina hati. Semua inilah yang Rasulullah jelaskan dalam hadithnya tentang bagaimana menghampiri zina tu. Nta boleh 'check' dalam Riyadahus Solihin, bawah bab larangan melihat wanita. Rasulullah bersabda, mata boleh berzina dgn melihat, lidah boleh berzina dengan bercakap, tangan boleh berzina dengan berpegangan. Kaki boleh berzina dengan berjalan ke arah tempat maksiat. Hati pula boleh berzina dgn merindui, mengingati dan membayangi si dia. Hakikatnye, macam mana pun nta buat, nta tetap tak dapat lari daripada zina hati."Saya terdiam..kelu. Tak tahu apa nak dikata. Semua yang brother tu kata tiada yang salahnya. Kemudian dia sambung.."Ana dulu pun couple gak. Lagi lama daripada nta. Sejak sekolah sampai dah masuk U, dekat nak gred. Tapi bila ana sedar apa yang ana buat ni salah, ana trus tinggalkan. Ana siap dah fikir, dialah bakal isteri ana, yang akan jadi ibu kepada anak-anak ana. Kalau nak diikutkan lagi besar masalah ana daripada nta.""Saya risau la bang. Nanti apa kawan-kawan dia kata. Dulu saya selalu minta tolong mereka untuk rapat dengan dia. Mesti nanti mereka semua tak puas hati dengan saya. Dan dia sendiri pula, saya takut apa-apa akan jadi pada dia kalau dia tak dapat terima keputusan ni. Sebab kami dah rapat sgt."Masa tu saya dah mula sebak. Malu betul. Menangis depan brother tu cerita pasal benda ni. Nasib baik tak ada org lain masa tu. Brother tu jwb.."Kalau kawan-kawan dia tak puas hati pun, mereka boleh buat apa? Paling teruk pun, mereka akan mengata di belakang nta. Nta tak kurang sikit pun. Lagipun, dalam berdakwah ni, kita nak cari redha Allah, biarlah orang nak kata apa-apa sekali pun, yang penting redha Allah. Kalau Allah tak redha, semuanya dah tak bermakna lagi."Saya trdiam lagi."Pasal die pula, cube nta fikir dari sudut positif, mungkin dia akan terima keputusan nta scara matang. Mungkin dia juga akan buat keputusan untuk tidak lagi bercouple. Ana yakin, die takkan buat apa-apa perkara bodoh. Kalau die buat sekalipun, itu bukan tagguungjawab nta, apa yang nta nak buat tu betul, meninggalkan maksiat. Semua orang akan tanggung balasan atas perbuatannya sndiri."Saya dah tak dapat tahan lagi. Masa itu saya menangis, saya dah sdar yang saya kena berhenti couple. Dah jelas sekarang, couple tu haram."Jadi apa saya nak buat bang?""Ana dulu, hantar satu sms je kat dia. Ana terangkan pada dia hubungan yang dibina itu salah. Minta maaf, kita berakhir di sini. Tolong jangan cari saya lagi. Lepas itu ana terus tukar nombor. Ana tak hubungi dia langsung lepas tu.""Maksudnya, saya tak boleh hubungi dia lagi ke? Tapi bang, saya ade juga kawan perempuan lain, boleh pula saya hubungi mereka?""Dengan dia ni lain. Nta dah pernah ada 'sejarah' dengan dia. Tapi, kalau nanti ditaqdirkan nta satu universiti dengan dia, satu kuliah, lepas tu kena pula buat group discussion, masa tu nta hanya layan dia hanya sebagai group discussion partner."Tiba-tiba saya terfikir.."Dia ni nak suruh aku clash malam ni gak ke? Sekarang gak? Takkanlah awal sangat?"Saya cakap.."Saya rasa saya belum ade kekuatan la bang. Boleh tak saya tunggu sampai saya ada kekuatan, baru saya tiggalkan benda ni?"Saya ingat nak lari la. Lalu dia jawab.."Akh, nta kena ingat. Kekuatan itu tidak boleh ditunggu, tapi ia perlu dibina. Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga kaum itu mengubah keadaannya sendiri. Nta boleh rujuk surah Ar-Ra'du,surah ke-13,ayat 11. Lagipun, nta nak tuggu sampai bila baru nak tinggalkan couple ni..abang-abang fasilitator ni pun ramai yang pernah couple, bila masuk dakwah, mereka tiggalkan."Alamak...tak boleh lari lagilah nampaknye..saya rasa macam brother ni paksa saya clash masa tu juga."Semuanya dah jelas rasanya..Nampaknya saya kena tiggalkanla benda ni gak ye. Macam tak larat rasanya nak tekan button handphone ni. Rasa tak sanggup.""Kalau tak sanggup mari ana tolong tekankan.""Eh, tak apalah bang. Biar saya taip sendiri."Teragak-agak saya nak taip masa tu. Tapi saya gagahkn juga diri.."Semuanya dah jelas..buat apa aku tangguh-tangguh lagi. Takut nanti hidayah ni Allah tarik, susah pula nak tinggalkan. Kan aku selalu doa supaya dijauhkan dari maksiat..jadi rasanya, inilah masanya.."Lalu perlahan-lahan saya taip sms tu.."Assalamualaikum..Sebenarnya selama ini hubungan kita salah di sisi Islam. Saya ingat dengan mengubah cara pergaulan kita, ia dah dibolehkan, tapi sebenarnya ia tetap berdosa. Saya harap awak akan istiqamah meneruskan perubahan yang awak dah buat, kerana Allah. Saya minta maaf atas segala yang dah berlaku. Kalau ada jodoh insya-Allah, akan bertemu juga. Assalamualaikum.."Berat betul nak hantar sms tu kat awk. Saya masih tak mampu nak ucap selamat tiggal. Sebab tu dalam sms tu saya hanya akhirkan dengan ucapan salam. Lepas beberapa ketika..saya tekan juga button [send].Lepas tu tertera di skrin..[SENDING..][MESSAGE SENT]Masa tu saya rasa macam separuh hidup saya dah hilang. Macam tak percaya..saya dah hantar 1 sms, dan clash dengan awak.."Terima kasih bang..""Takpe, dah tanggungjawab.."Malam tu saya saya tidur dengan linangan air mata..tak sangka..mmg tak disangka..Saya memang tak pernah terfikir untuk clash, tapi itulah yang terbaik untuk kita sbenarnya..Tiba-tiba saya teringat ayat Allah..surah Al-Baqarah,ayat 216..Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.*******Masa terus berlalu.. Saya terus sibukkan diri dengan kerja-kerja lain. Dalam usaha nak lupekan awk, bukan senang,tapi saya terus cuba. Saya selalu bagi tazkirah, ingatkan orang.Saya bagi ta'lim di msjid, terangkan pada orang, couple haram, tunjuk segala dalil.. Macam-macam yang berlaku..ada kritikan..ade gk yg stuju..tapi tak kisahlah semua tu..Tiba-tiba satu pagi ni, dapat sms daripada awak..awak bagi gambar bunga..bawah tu ada ayat.."Seindah gubahan pertama.."Saya rasa awak masih tak dapat lupakan saya. Saya pun fikir.."Kena tegaskan rasanya". Lepas tu saya hantarlah sms ni. Dan rasanya itulah yg terakhir.."Tiada yang lebih indah daripada mendapat keredahaan ilahi..seindah manapun gubahan pertama tu, selagi tak mendapat keredahaanNya, tetap tiada gunanya..Assalamualaikum..saya tahu, dulu saya cakap, kalau ada jodoh, insya-Allah akan bertemu juga. Tapi saya taknak awak tunggu. Lupakan saya. Biar Allah yang menentukan..Lagi satu,Jangan cari cinta manusia,ia penuh dengan penipuan,kekecewaan,dan tak kekal..Tapi carilah cinta Allah..tiada penipuan,tidakkan pernah mengecewakanitulah cinta abadi..Cinta yang diredahai..-Yang Terakhir- "[SEND][SENDING..][MESSAGE SENT]Saya dah buat keputusan.Saya pasti apa yang saya buat ni betul.Saya yakin, Allah akan sediakan yang terbaik untuk saya.Saya takkan berpatah balik..Takkan..buat selama-lamanya.

2007-12-19T13:35:00.001Z

2007-12-18T23:49:00.000Z

whoever calls at 650am??? i know i don't!!! haiz, tk tau ape nk ckp uh...

anw, anybody heard of hellogoodbye n sugarcult?? theyre good!!!! =)

yesterday binged on the 8tv show kami...so addictive lah! watched the entire season one..is there a sequel??? plsx328943287 producers make season 2!!

why isnt there surf films on the net?? somebody upload pls!!!nothing to blog really, just random stuffs~~~my brain is rotting...language composting...currently an airhead. want the equation?

(no school+no books+wayyy too much tv+wayyy too much internet+listening to brainless songs+not reading books/mags/newspapers) × 18 hours per day everyday
=dead brain neurons

that was a no-brainer huh? lol pun intended

2007-12-13T14:30:00.000Z

went to kampung last week...heres da pics!!! amacam...ade tokoh jd photog tk?? :P

2007-12-13T14:00:00.000Z

2007-12-03T00:07:00.000Z

hey.well, didnt go online 4 some time coz on thurs got hurt while skateboarding. i fell and hurt my lower back and couldnt sit or stand initially. so, my mom called the ambulance. poor guys, i wish i was lighter and thinner.lol. in the ambulance i was hooked onto an iv.it was weird as i could feel the fluid flowing in my hand.euch.so anyways went to TTSH and got x-rayed.and Alhamdulillah there was no fracture.so the doctor, -or medical officer as the badge said(whats the diff? somebody explain pls)- gave some pain killers, muscle relaxant, gel, and paracatemol. it was an experience i could live without but i learned some things though.
(1) it really hurts to stand or sit for a person with an injured lower back
(2) skirts rule
(3) the most important of all: skateboards are dangerous items. play safe, with adult supervision, wearing helmets, knee,wrist, and arm pads, wrapping your body in cushion or other soft materials, and ride it on a mattress so when you fall it wouldnt hurt...
*pray for me aite* =)

2007-11-28T15:16:00.000Z

why?

2007-11-12T08:09:00.000Z

hey all! even thou i am in no mood to blog, here i am typing this, for the sake of the beautiful layout. lol. things worthy of mention: went kayaking on friday with suriana, khadijah and fathimah. although it was a sit-on kayak, it was still a fun experience and i got blisters from rowing. weirdly thou, my arms didnt ache, instead my legs and back did. the kayak was cumbersome and big and ORANGE, so it is quite impossible to capsize. the whole time i wished it DID capsize coz the water's sooo inviting, like it's calling me from below or something. i paired up with su, while the other two got in another kayak. saturday i was supposed to go rock-climbing with my sis, but my father was still in a bad mood coz i didnt tell him i was going out the day before.(whats the point of asking anyway, he always say no, even before we ask.go figure.)so we didnt go. sunday went to a neighbor's house. between thurs and sunday, i watched movies end to end, thanks to this wonderful new media called the INTERNET, more specifically free online movie streaming, a wonder quite alien to me before thurs. lol. binged on ocean's 13, the simpsons movie, bee movie, HSM2, and a barrage of half-watched movies like shes the man, bratz, notes on a scandal, borat, and few others which names elude my mind right now... today i got marks for my sastera,BM and GP papers, none of which i was happy with. (and these were the easiest papers...shudders at the thought of the OTHERS) tomorrow apparently there's an 'excursion' to the 'city gallery'. still thinking whether to come or not to come...

BTW!!! damn sister! shes going freaking rock climbing TODAY! without me!

2007-11-05T04:49:00.000Z

i cant wait for the end of me exams!! 2 more days to write crap on paper~~ *pulls hair* ive never been like this, i.e. not being prepared for an exam... i dont wanna fail!!! (but i didnt study,lol) wanna make two announcements

(1) to mwt preu 1 student: lets jln raya on wed!!! i wanna see how ur houses look like...haha
(2) to all: i wanna go kayaking/rock climbing/ice skating like, after the exams... who wanna follow pls tag/sms/call/tell/whatever me... k, thats all folks. n, doakan my success in the exams!!

2007-10-23T08:40:00.000Z

my hero
my car's THAT one!
aint i pretty?
my beloved neneks. blue-nenek som, brown-nenek non.

i didnt know my sis' bday cake was THIS PRETTY!!(pgi berjln raye tyme celebrate bday die n nenek non~~klw tau x ikut!!! WAAA~~)

2007-10-23T08:13:00.000Z

abah and 'umayr, masjid istiqomah
my sister keep calling this pic brother love.pak anjang's house
baju kurung biru 'aishah,haha, masjid en-naem
afiq and danish. their house. afiq is sooo charming i tell you!!!
look at the sword-chair! how neat~

2007-10-23T07:35:00.000Z

assalamualaikum. havent been blogging for a quite a while. busy lah. hari raya and all.
this eid was a learning experience for me. here a some things to note:
(1) a van btwn 2500 kg to 3500 kg needs at least 45 minutes to unload, if full of clothes and done by an adult and two kids.
(2) if the eid prayer starts at 730 am, and you come at 720 am, bring your own mat because youre praying outside the mosque. or you can go and pray under void decks (starts at 830 am) (ha! wake up earlier la~~)
(3) the nearer a car is to a trailer on the road, the higher is its fuel efficiency.
(4) do NOT buy your shoes a DAY before hari haya unless you want that poor, neglected, 5th choice pair of shoes coz they run out of shoes your size.
(5) it is possible to go to 21 houses in a day, if you rent a bus, have a whistle blower, with a stopwatch, blowing at 10 minutes after entering a house. (14 minutes if food is served)
(6) if a host is too tired receiving 82 guests a day, he should retreat to his bedroom when guest no.41 returns home, instead of showing his tired-i-had-enough face when guest no.42 arrives.
(7) a girl who marries young will most probably have a child taken cared for by her mother, whom people will mistake as the mother, not the grandmother, of the baby. (read twice or thrice to comprehend,lol)
(8) when reading your school textbook while at your mom's friend's house, people will think that you're very studious, instead of that youre reading that thing for the first time since the teacher taught it in class, and your exam starts the next TWO days!!! (the latter is correct, if you dont know me well enough)
(9) the first paper of my end of year exam starts in about 16 hours from now, and if i dont want to fail it, i should log off. NOW.

2007-10-05T07:05:00.000Z

Don't Procrastinate! Learn to Get Things Done Now, Not Later
In the fast paced setting of the modern world, it's pretty tempting at times to procrastinate. We've all had moments in our lives where the urge to procrastinate is overwhelming.Putting things off or choosing to procrastinate rather than actually getting work done can lead to serious problems in the long run. If you procrastinate and want some quick tips for getting the tasks at hand done when you get them, look no further.

1. Break it up: Perhaps you've wanted to reorganize your closet, but it's such a huge project you procrastinate and are reluctant to begin.If this is the case, then break up that large task into to smaller increments so you can't really procrastinate. Not only will it seem doable, but you'll find yourself with a clean closet in a relatively short amount of time and won't procrastinate!However you break up the process is up to you, but I've found sorting through clothes on one day and shoes on another is a quite effective method to help me not procrastinate.

2. Lighten up: Another helpful tip in combating procrastination includes changing your mindset. If you're a perfectionist, you know that the thought of even beginning a project is overwhelming because you're consumed with having it turn out "just right" which causes many to procrastinate.Getting rid of or suppressing this urge for perfection will definitely help your project get under way and stop the annoying urge to procrastinate.By setting reachable goals for yourself, you will have realistic expectations of what you can do, and you'll find seeing a task through from start to finish is less work when not worrying about every little detail and ultimately won't procrastinate.

3. Schedule it: If you can't seem to get started on anything, make a list to combat your habit to procrastinate. Rank all of your projects in order based on when they're due and how difficult they are.It's hard to procrastinate with a list in front of you, guiding you through the day. Make sure to put this to-do list in a prominent place in your office or on your desk so it greets you at each morning as inspiration to not procrastinate.

4. Put it off, a little: Try some structured delay time to end your putting off of projects indefinitely that leads to the tendency to procrastinate.When planning to work on an assignment, schedule in breaks where you can stand, stretch, and relax for a bit before getting back to it. Planned leisure time is great, as long as it stays within set boundaries and doesn't turn into time where you procrastinate.Go ahead and watch your favorite TV show before picking an essay topic, but make sure the television goes off once it's over.Fight the urge to leave the TV on while you work and press the 'off' button immediately after your program ends. This way, you remove the distractions around you, making focusing on work easier and the temptation to procrastinate lessened.So whatever your personal barriers are when it comes to tending to procrastinate, just keep structure in mind when planning your day. Don't leave super large slots of time that could cause you to procrastinate.Ultimately, it's up to you to change your behavior patterns and eliminate the bad habit to procrastinate in your life.

2007-10-04T11:26:00.000Z

i found this somewhere:

this feeling's creeping up on me
tugging at my heart
killing silently
i can't bear it anymore
being apart from you
cause you give me life
and fill me with hope
help me go on
day by day
baby
i miss you
i want you
i need you
i want you to say
that you love me
baby
can we meet?
let's get away
for a night
trace your face
touch your heart
hear you smile

isn't that the mushiest and cliched poem you've ever heard? what do you think?

2007-09-25T12:09:00.000Z

yeah~~~ today's 25th september !!! its MY birthday~~~ cumpleanos feliz...lol. i hate 18. 18 is like soooo 24! i like being seventeen.

2007-09-20T13:02:00.000Z

this blog has been neglected long nuff.

lol

so, as i am wasting quite a lot of time on the net (repairing!!) stuff, might as well update, right?

coz tired lah, many people complain that the fungi and mould growth is disgusting...

haiz.

ok.

i was going thru ppl's friendster profiles and i saw one of a student snogging his gf and i told the principal so that he will be caned.

haha, no lah.

i was going thru ppl's friendster profiles and i saw one with a shoutout that goes: ramadan kareem...blablabla...f-king dead...in the same sentence. i thought it was not proper and told that person 2 change it. unfortunately, she got really defensive and irritating.

she gave me a
Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("9/18/2007 4:58 AM","timetag1","SG");
Tuesday, 18 September, 2007 4:58 AM
Subject:
excuse me!?
Message:
if you have a problem with my shout-out you dont have to publicise it by sending me a comment..have some guts..you're the one who thought of it that way. dont talk to me about respect cuz wat i did - i dont think its wrong. if u have a problem - go tell it to the wall... obviously ure pretty much a pain in the ass.buzz off..and oh..RAMATHAN KAREEM, LADY.

geram kan??

i replied:

apparently, religion is not ur thing

she went ballistic after that:

neither it is of yours. if u know what religion meant, you'd know that its a one-man army.dont speak to me as if u pray 5 times a day every single day of your life..dont talk to me about religion when you,yourself have sins..dont tell me i dont know or religion isnt my thing when im sure u dont read the Quran every day in ur life, memorize the whole book, and perform tasbir whenever u have a minute to spare..so much for the genius in religion...anyways.. i tell you what, why dont you be smart and piss off.. we dont want u to be starting something u just cant win. and oh. i think high school musical is on tv now.

i said:

whatever.~~~~!
fyi, in fact, i DO read the quran everyday and pray 5 times a day.
coz, as u noe, thats what MUSLIMS do.maybe u should start doing what uve said(pray,read quran,zikr) instead of watching TELEVISION.
i hope Allah will always guide you in your life and give you huda and rahmah.i was only trying to act upon the Prophet's saying: "whoever sees a munkar among you then change it with ur hands, if you cant, with your tongue, if u cant, then with your heart(by hating it), and that is the weakest type of Iman".i didnt expect you to be so mad. i am sorry if u took it the wrong way.
"قل الحق ولو كان مرا"-speak of the truth even if its bitter-

she replied:
how smart. u diss and diss and diss and then give me a lecture i already know.- geez.. for someone who "reads" so much, cant even get this straight...ahh, i do not have time for this.

i,even more than her, do not have time to waste talking to humans like her,and did not reply.

haizzzz.stupid people say stupid things.i hope im not stupid.k, till next time, maassalamah...:)

2007-09-06T12:37:00.000Z

i wonder what happens to blogs
which are not updated and left to rot??
will there be moulds and fungi?
let us experiment with this one....

2007-08-30T13:38:00.000Z

'umayr, as per requested :)

i haven't been blogging for quite a while now, because i don't like my blogskin and have no time to change it. ;p and for several other reasons...

2007-08-20T12:18:00.000Z

this is a once in a lifetime rare post coz im gonna write in malay....
-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
besok test fiqh, tp sampai sekarang belum hafal~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ baru hafal definition jer@!$^%$#&&^ aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh tolong!!!!!! helphelphelp abes sekarang waste tyme, blog seme, tak tau nak hafal. ingat pandai sangat ker????>>>>>>!!!!!!!!!!

*faints, fall on floor*

*dies*

2007-08-15T12:20:00.000Z

some dumb stuffs.....

lol

Rules :Each player starts off the game by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as stating the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

(1) i will soap myself thrice or at least twice in the shower
(2) my dreams are more interesting than my real life
(3) i can lick my elbow-well, not so weird but YOU try that-
(4) i can spend a day doing ABSOLUTELY nothing
(5) my right arm is longer than my left
(6) i will always, everytime, never fail to do things at the lastest minute

i'll tag:

(1) habiibah
(2) ruqayyah
(3) aalimah
(4) nasiruddin
(5) farah
(6) atiqah

2007-08-11T06:57:00.000Z

i am so frustated with youtube and my laptop in general. suddenly, youtube loads so slow and that is gawd, so, irritating and time wasting. previously it loaded instantaneously. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate technology!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-04T10:38:00.000Z

Time Management Skills

By Jason Drohn on Apr 25, 2007 in Business Building 101

Oftentimes, one of the hardest things we can do, is get everything done. With so many demands on our time, there’s just simply not enough hours in day. This is especially true if you go to school and work or have your own business. One of the basic skills, that every young entrepreneur needs is good time management skills.

The following are some areas that should be focused on to maintain a good schedule.

1-Prioritize - Not every task is a crucial as the next. Weigh some more heavily than others. If you have a class assignment, it might be weighted more heavily than a project you’ve been working on.

2-Schedule weekly reviews - This includes going through your to do list and seeing what you’ve done in the previous week and how you could do it better.

3-Develop blocks of time - rather than make all your phone calls throughout the day, scheduled one hour for them and sit down with a list of people to contact. This will help alleviate wasted minutes through out the day.

4-Have alternative places - this includes having a coffee shop or library to work at. Somewhere free of distractions where you won’t be constantly nagged by your feed reader.

5-Dead time - Use your downtime to catch up on the little things such as reading a book, working through an idea, or planning a project.

6-Lists - Have current to do lists, daily and weekly planners, and the long-term planner. Each of these should be updated consistently.

7-Set goals - if you don’t know where you’re going, how are you going to get there?

Lately, I’ve been under an incredible time crunch. So I figured these thoughts would help you as well. I’m particularly fond of the goal setting, though. I feel everybody should set goals for themselves, their businesses, and their life. In time management, goal setting is crucial.
Not only is there just 24 hours a day, but there are only seven days in a week. Two of those days should be devoted to family or free time, and the other five are usually committed to business. Even bloggers take a couple days off. Time management is absolutely crucial to their success.

One of the things I’ve gone through over the past month or so, is working way too much. Not only has work suffered from being in too deep, but free time has become way more stressful. Too much to do, not enough hours in the day - leads to a pretty boring entrepreneur.

So I hope these tips offer a thought of what it takes to pull off successful time management. It is probably one of the most crucial things which we do on a day-to-day basis, but it is rarely addressed.

2007-08-01T18:51:00.001Z

the time now is 0252 and i'm still awake

2007-08-01T15:42:00.000Z

期不紺に地わwow i typed japanese!!!

haha ok2...

yesterday my sis(aishah munirah) nye birthday. so, as usual, there was plenty of food, and about 30% of the total food served found their way into my mouth, down my esophagus, and into my stomach, which, until this second, rumbled ferociously in protest due to the impossibly large amount of consumables shoved down. here's the breakdown:

(1)fried bee hoon

(2)rice with ayam lemak cili padi

(3)french loaf with curry

(4)plum

(5)longan

(6)jellies

(7)ferrero rocher

(8)chocolate and blueberry cake

yeah, thats all i think, though i have this feeling that i missed a few things out. and i uploaded the choc's image coz its easier for all to recognize it and report to the authorities, as it was the cause for my gastronomical difficulties.
tara~tats all for now....gotta get my beauty sleep~haha

2007-07-26T07:07:00.000Z

whats this? nobody's in the computer lab, save for three. gosh. hmm. its been a long time since ive last blogged coz my dad, my lovely, wonderful, amazing father, hid my -insert above-mentioned adjectives again- laptop. "iza ra a ahadun minkum munkaran fal yugayyiruhu biyadih..." haha. time wastage included, apparently. i etah gnihtyreve ni ym efil. go figure. oh! of things worthy of mention:
i had a particularly WEIRD dream, sort of, last night. see, my feet was palely numb and cold, and as i had several cups of water before i dozed off, i had this -sensation?- -urge?- to go to the toilet. naturally, i was dreaming. in that dream, i had to wake up, coz, see, i was wanting to pee. haha. so i stumbled into the toilet. and guess what, it was a dream toilet not a real toilet. so i struggled to get up. like really really really hard, before being able to break free from my dream. i blinked a few times, gained my consciousness, and really went to the loo.

2007-07-15T12:33:00.000Z

this font is trebuchet?? ouh. i havent realised. well, right this mo, i feel that i had had enough of schooling. arghhh. so mundane. so repetitive. so restricting. so uncreative. so suppressing. so oppressing. so limiting. so lifeless. so ungreat. so tiring. so maddening. so wasting time. so listening to lies. so irritating. so biased. so discriminating. so hateful.
-argh gtg-

2007-07-15T12:25:00.000Z

my post on june 30th has been edited following the sage advice of my caring, loving, and concerned friend, Ruqayyah, without whom, life would be emptier. God bless her. :) lol

2007-07-14T16:16:00.000Z

i suddenly feel scared. read the innocent man by john grisham. how fragile life is. the book was a real life story about a horrendous journey of a man wrongly prosecuted for murder he didn't commit. he was put in a high security death row prison just because the police and prosecuter did not want to waste time capturing the killer. he spent 11 eleven to be vindicated and it costed him his sanity and health. finally, DNA testing made him a free man. it is quite a chilling story and it proves the unreliability of the man-made penal system we are governed with. for God clearly rules the best, and He is the Most Fair and Just prosecuter.

2007-07-12T09:50:00.000Z

saper nak tgk surf movie tonite?? come around 9pm at my place yeah...free popcorn and brownies and sundae...movie featuring josh kerr, julian wilson, taj burrow, kelly slater, and many2 more...!

2007-07-10T12:46:00.000Z

i think i should start off by telling you what happened on saturday. no there was no tragedy. just my uncle getting married. he's my mom's littlest brother. he got married before and divorced so this was his second marriage. the bride he chose was okay i guess, nice and caring. she looks pretty too. i wore my black pants and t-shirt under the purple sheer thingy i had. at 9.00 am saturday, we(my mom, gran's fren, my paternal gran, my uncle's two kids from his first marriage, my siblings) got on the bus to to to the girl's house for the akad nikah. we carried trays upon trays of hantaran. (there was 17 or so[!]) i carried the one with tarts, and another one with telekung. everyone needed to carry two or so coz there were too many trays but few people. when we walked along the corridor leading to her house, there were three cameramen snapping our pix. felt like a celebrity, lah...:P then we entered the house and we laid the trays out at the hall it almost covered the entire floor area. then we waited some till the kadi came and he did and so my uncle got married, then we took pics with the bride, went downstairs to eat. the setting was pretty nice and it was RED. then got whisked away, now carrying the gifts the bride gave to my uncle, onto the bus. when i reached my gran's block where the reception was held, my gran's frens were reading doa n stuff n i had to pee so i went upstairs. after, got back downstairs and said hello to some people and helped a bit, clearing the tables, packing food and stuff. lps tu me tired, went upstairs, and slept. hahaha. so the whole time, i was telling my mother that i aint ever gonna get married coz the preparations and stuff so tedious, time, money consuming. or im gonna hv a really simple one, kt masjid je, or a really grand one, at the beach or yatch or smtg, where nobody needs to do anything coz everything's being paid for. but getting hitched is like, not a goal for me or smtg coz of the commitment stuff you know. lol. deep stuff mate, better not talk bout it too soon. haha. and btw,
little stuffs eh? hmm not at the moment uh. next post maybe...

2007-07-05T12:50:00.000Z

well, i want to know how to live up to my name, if u catch my drift. see theres this guy, he posted a vid, and got 16900+ hits in A DAY. hmm... i wonder how did he achieve that. sending out emails? commenting at every page? advertising?? online networking? connections within youtube?? lol, quite unlikely i guess. placing my bet on word of mouth(mouse more likely, yea?) or something...anyways...
i feel evermore disattached with the world more than ever. i fear my end coming to a near.
my day was...fine.
in computer class we did the kinda thing you need to do for a word/link to change color and stuff when you move your mouse over it. its quite easy once you get the hang of it. you just splice(eh?) it and put in another frame and thread it together and... well, am just confusing you arent i? haha i soo wanna learn more cool stuff.. 97283 more lessons till i can do computer programming/be a software engineer...gah!
deaths surround me. everyday. yet, it seems, only now, only now it has gotten this far. i couldn't.......
just now i took a few pics-well my sister did some of them; can i call it a photoshoot?lol- and as usual, the pics didnt do me justice at all!!! i think i got a few homework to get done with. but right now i am soo in a harry potter appreciation kinda mood. just finished reading the fifth, aint got the sixth, sulking like hell...
days bend and burn, stomach weak and churn, feelings void and empty, happiness surely left me
well, i guess i should stop here now, for i am, i dunno, not the mood to blog a lengthy one this time yeah,? cheers all, peace :)

daily report

2007-07-03T09:19:00.000Z

today is: 18 jumada thaniya 1428H.
the reason i know this: my sister changed the language to arabic yesterday night and it stuck.yeayness.
just had my dinner: fish soup with rice and vegs.
today was: a quite normalish schooling day.
things of significant mention: met my school teachers at the Eunos bus stop after school. never happened before. turns out they board the same bus as me (966) everyday from that bus stop, just at a later time(1415hrs). oh.
what i read today: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. since i'm gonna watch the movie next week, might as well i refreshen up my Harry Potter knowlegableness(?) so as to spoil the ending for my friends who are going to watch it too...haha...am looking forward to meeting my old school mates and hope they're not gonna cancel it. don't you dare, guys!!!
the sweetest thing i did today: rocked my baby bro to sleep. aww~~ he's just an angel. was a bit testy before, whining and crying (he's got a bit of a temperature) and wiggling but he's asleep now. lucky he got an amazingly caring sister like me... haha
what i am thinking about right now: why am i not anorexic?? i want to be anorexic!!
what am i doing right now: typing in this blog entry.
what i should be doing right now: taking a bath.
-thats all for right now, i'm going off to surf, peace+don't be jealous :)-

2007-07-02T08:27:00.001Z

my school, Harvard.

hmm tknk continue yg post psl 'lifestory' tu argh... nmpk mcm lame pulak///lol.

life story

2007-06-30T06:17:00.001Z

todays saturday :) somebody requested for me to write about my life story. whatever that is. *winks*so i think i will write like, a, um an autobiography instead? lol is that ok? well. My mom and dad is so hating me at the moment, always picking on me, nagging, scolding. they hate/loathe me, and the feeling's soooo mutual, thank God!!! i was soo right when i prophesized that i should have moved out of my house at 16. i am living currently at Blk__ Singapore 730___. LOL. My full home address if u wanna snail mail me or visit me during the festivities. My home phone number is +65________ and my cellphone is +65______. haha semua nak bilang seh... I started school at Annur too, then attended Irsyad from K2-secondary5. Now at PreU1 at Mwt. As a small kid, i am pretty shy and i remember i pretty much kept to myself. nevertheless, i was blessed to have the company of two bestfriends, nor amirah and aishah mutalif, aidah and rashidah, siti amirah being the exception, and ruqayyah and habiibah. i was (and hope sooo much still am, but too lazy to work for it, a straight As student....to be continued

things

2007-06-28T07:16:00.000Z

see the first one is the poster i did for school. god, surf mags people are sooo creative and talented im sooo jealous of them!!

snufferincks

2007-06-28T06:57:00.000Z

hello everyone! currently, i'm on flight VW765 flying over the islands of Maldives, 11658 metres above ground. um, nah~~ in my school's computer lab. gosh. the keyboard's so big and awkward. hmm... ive been feeling this out of body experience for a few days now... soo tired/sick! help help i am soo dispirited right now, like ive given up on life or something, and i find everything so....soo.... empty? Allahumma inni a'uzubika minal hammi wal hazn...
changing colors+i dont really know what to write at the moment. oh yeah/ i have been dreaming about being in Australia twice now. dont know why. but i think that my dreams are telling me that i will be going to the land down under anyday now... dont be jealous you guys, just send me a plane ticket. lol. make it one-way coz i dont plan on coming home just yet -need to go to bali first - then switzerland, paris, uk, us, argentina, iraq, iran, yaman, africa, china, you get the picture. the first thing im gonna do in Australia is to surf. well, i think im gonna grab a bite first before that, but yeah, right after, im sooo gonna SURF!!! buy me a surfboard somebody!!!
"takde jubah?"
lol
"kau buat ape tu?"
"uh, turntable ar,"
"kau bassist,"
lol lol
whatever yeah-snippets of conversations-
"mane gambar eh nak amek?"
lol lol lol
"thought youve done spongebobkan?"
"announcement,announcement:kanak-kanak yang sesat kat luar,"
hmm not funny no more. lol.
gosh. blush. haole.

totally whatev-VER__--

2007-06-22T02:41:00.000Z

aww~~ aint he the sweetest thang?
just thought this is interesting, don't you think?
ha!
my boat's THAT one! can you spot it??

2007-06-21T15:31:00.000Z

syahirah syahirah syahirah

a tribute to...

2007-06-21T14:58:00.000Z

gawd~~~!!! my parents are always asking me to do this and that and this and that....! don't they know that they have a lazy daughter? haha today i was mostly sleepy... after taking a shower, i still felt sleepy and tried to sleep but then......
MY MOM CAME TO MY ROOM BRANDISHING A CANE !!!
"eh, bgn skrg!! ape nie?! tdo tdo tdo !!! tkde keje lain ker?? tlg lar sidai baju ke kemas ke!!"

ARghH~~ help!!!

so, unwillingly, i hung the clothes
then i got on the sofa for another shut-eye

lol

"WOI!!! BANGUN LAR PEMALAS ETC2....."

i didn't hear what she said after that coz i ran away coz she wanna scold me again rite, then i went to Sheng Siong to buy some stuffs. my mom wanna bake a cake. (kek kukus) so i bought mix fruits, sugar, orange flavoring, n some other stuffs.
i want to swim!!! -random thoughts-

mustaqim just got back from kampong.. he stayed there like one week and is so tanned! and, well, i just realized this rite this sec, he still has the flu... wow, some virus, eh? he had it since, like, march, i think.

my back hurts right now...so is my neck and shoulders...haiz

-and the yucky kek kukus is still steaming right now-
-sara lee pound cake is still the best! yum :)-

k till next time yeah
oh and, this entry is per ruqayyah's request, just so you know
peace out

past+present+future

2007-06-19T16:38:00.000Z

I recently just got back from performing Umrah. It was an amazing experience...
Went there for 9 days, 6th June 2007-14th June 2007, on flights SQ456 to and SQ455 from Jeddah airport, with my father (only)(yep,my mom didnt go-everyone seems to ask this question "your mum didnt go?", so id thought id give you the answer first, haha, before you even asked).
First-went to Medina, stayed at the Green Palace hotel. Reached there at around 2am+, and Fajr was at 4am, so we checked in at the hotel first and cleaned up before going to the mosque just as the first Azan rang out.
Masjidin Nabawi is magnificently beautiful and i was awestruck with its beauty.(word repeat,lol) It was NOTHING that i imagined it to be~cool[airconditioned], tranquil, red-carpeted[God is in the details], clean, neat, spacious, its marble pillars donned with many Qurans, Muslims praying, reciting the Quran, doing zikr, resting, the many coolers of zamzam water lined up waiting to be drunk :), the full-hijabed women guards, the babies and kids who cried when their mothers prayed...
after about three days, we went to al-Harem
it was scorching hot, with little humidity, the sky was glaring, the heart humbled by God's grace
Our miqat was at Bir Ali, then, we proceeded to enter
Masjidil Haram. There it was. The Holy Kaabah in black kiswah. Muslims performing the tawaf in an anticlockwise motion. Subhanallah. Glory be to Him, the Creator of mankind... Labbaikallahumma labbaik
Ust baharuddin led us during tawaf and sai. It sure needed strength to perform the umrah :)
After that, i did 2 more umrahs, taking miqat at Tanaim and Ji'ranah

Days bled into one another
Dates i couldnt remember
Of course, i had no bother
Just to bow before my Creator

I also visited some prominent places in both Mecca and Medina, like Ma'la, Jibil Uhud, Thur, Rahmah, dates plantation, some camel (herding?)(breeding?)(rearing?) place-tasted some camel milk at my father's insistence-it was smell free and a bit too watery for my liking.

Bought some abayas in Medina and books in Mecca... Oh, and had beef pita from the street vendor it was okay, i guess, the bread a bit dry but otherwise, okay, and had double-scoop ice-cream cone(very berry strawberry and old fashioned butter pecan) from baskin 31 robbins.. yum! delisioso

too soon

It was time to get back home... Airplane seats are the most uncomfortable things EVER!!! my neck+shoulders hurt SOOO MUCH... the seats are not ergonomic at all!!! but amazingly, by some kind of miracle, i managed to get some shut-eye during the flight. (and watched the movies the number 23 and starter for 10 too while airborne. my father didnt approve of me watching movies and nudged me a few times but well/// hmm...im too stubborn to listen, and the second movie was quite interesting, haha)
at the airport-reunited with my family...lol

oh and yesterday, went to kampong, just for a few hours...slept there and went back home. didnt even get a dip in the pool. actually i went there for the car ride. how lame/but saddingly, its true. on saturday, i went to a wedding and after, we(mak+pak long, nenek, umi, umayr,aishah, farah, dinie and me) went to my gran's relative house in JB(rumah cik eton/samad) to give them my uncle's wedding invitation card. i, if you dont already know, loves travelling in vehicles(cars,taxis,buses,trains-mrt,planes) prayed that i could stay on the road longer. incidentally, my uncle got lost-yay! so we spent around an hour extra on the road. despite the fact that it was his second time to the house, and having even got lost the first time round, my uncle still manage to lose his way the second time...lol we ate roti kirai and curry ayam and drank milo...laziz jiddan! hmm~ever since getting home from mecca, i seem to be wanting to sleep most hours of the day, feeling very tired and lazy and sick. anybody got a cure or tip? do leave a comment on how to overcome sleepyingitis.

peace out

hellogoodbye

2007-05-18T12:12:00.001Z

lalala

cont'd

2007-05-02T15:12:00.000Z

Hmm... so. as if today wasn't %#$!@& enough, some people still wanna add salt to the wound. Drop it people! I think there's enough negativity in this world to rebirth another Hitler. So. Let's all be NICE to each other okay? Make this global-warmed world a cooler place to live. Smile to your neighbour. Offer a seat to the frail. Help your sister with her homework('skay if you don't do this thou coz i don't-lol). Anything really. Most importantly, do something that will make you and those around you happy. If you've got nothing interesting/smart to say, shut up, just like what the Prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. asked us to do. If you're in a particularly foul mood, DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT go around hitting people/shooting them/shouting/throwing things around/etc. Quickly extract yourself from the unpleasant situation you're in. You'll be better off sleeping I tell ya. Coz when you're asleep, you can't+won't hear a thing. As such, true is the age old adage:
Ignorance is Bliss ;)

frustrations part IV

2007-05-02T15:04:00.000Z

God. Why must this happen to me?? Damn it man. I hate the KKK!!! and their impersonators/followers. LAtEsT cRap: I didn't get into the FC. ARggHHH. I f-king hate them!!!
It's SOOOOOOOO unfair!!!! Discrimnating bigots!!! yuck yuck yuck it's so sickening??!!! I mean, like we're a first world country now! Why do some still cling onto those fanatic extremist suppressive oppressive hate-filled backwards dumb unethical racist ideologies? weird paradox(?)

OJ freak

2007-04-27T12:25:00.000Z

hey there...there's school tomorrow:( i don't really dig schooling on saturdays!! yea2 tomorrow's gonna be THE day!!! (joyride) and damn... i don't know what to wear. collared t-shirt? who the hell wears that??? yucks!! i badly crave for OJ right now. i have this theory, you see, that my blood is made up of orange juice. i don't know why. if anybody wanna make me happy or can't think of what to buy me for my bitrthday, get me Orange Juice. i'm totally addicted to that stuff, man. i keep putting off doing my homework because i'm logged on virtually 24/7 like. haha. and i also miss reading my books... :(

unfinished business

2007-04-27T12:22:00.000Z

omg.this blog is totally ugly! haha can't be bothered anyway. nobody's gonna read it.. haha..